Telling People

[Linda Lee Bogard - King]

All here posting keep your head held high even when you cry - let the world see what it (violence) has done to you - maybe others will grow from it.

I've been giving a lot of thought to all the posts I have been reading... and I know why people try to hide their - PTSD - same reason my son won't go get therapy - he believes it is a sign of weakness or that he's crazy, and all the other negative comments that go with any mental illness- But PTSD is a badge I wear - I walk around life reminding people what can happen to someone at the hands (literally) of others who bear evil in their hearts. I shout it out nowadays and f@$k 'em all if they can't handle it. I will not back down when righteous is might.

 

[charliehotelwhiskey]

I don't know if it is a sign of weakness. I see it do they really want to know the truth. Do they want to hear about the things I had to deal with. In some cases the blood and gore. Seeing people at their worst. There are people that walk around in rose coloured glasses. Would they want to know the dark side of society. Sorry, I had a rough day. Triggered again today.

 

[Tinyflame]

I think it's a valid point charliehotelwhiskey.
And really, for me personally, why would I want to?

 

[Linda Lee Bogard - King]

Seeking help is not a sign of weakness I told my son but it takes courage to do something about the situation - And charliehotelwhiskey... sometimes those rose colored glasses need to be yanked off. No one really grows up hoping to know the dark side - it just happens. Blood, guts and gore are a part of me... and one charred body ... and if something horrific happens, right here and now - I would want to know all so I can better help and understand the person going through the trauma. That's just me ... I face it all front and center. It is my defense and strength.

 

[Srain]

I don't know if it is a sign of weakness. I see it do they really want to know the truth. Do they want to hear about the things I had to deal with. In some cases the blood and gore. Seeing people at their worst. There are people that walk around in rose coloured glasses. Would they want to know the dark side of society. Sorry, I had a rough day. Triggered again today.

I know you are right about this, I can feel them recoil whenever I even begin to go near the subject, people I adore in my life - they are living in denial. I told one loved who said to me that the past is over and gone, "not for me, it's ALWAYS there!", he said nothing, he knows I live 24/7 and struggle to stay in both worlds.

 

[Gamereign555]

Most of my family has reacted well but my mother doesn't answer her phone and will not contact me and that kind of bothers me but she has her own issues with anxiety and denial.
In the beginning I told a few different people, I think I was just trying to get it out there thinking that it would be good for me to share, and it did make me feel better and some people asked questions about it and even told me of relatives of theirs that were also going through ptsd. It did make me feel better.

However, after that I felt that the feeling of sharing with a stranger was starting to feel more like an excuse for my issues (which they probably didn't even notice) Or that I was looking to talk about something that they didn't want to hear about.
I think probably that strangers don't need to know, for me telling the first couple of people that I didn't know was more like an exercise, just to hear myself say that I had ptsd and to talk about some of the issues, beyond that its of no real importance and its likely to make people uncomfortable.