That's It, That's All!

[simplekindofgirl]

Hugs Tigrou. Many, many, many hugs.

 

[tigrou465]

Thursday night close to 7 o'clock.. all I want is to be alone and go to bed, Sleep so I won't feel! Daugher is with me but she is in a bad mood... I don't feel like talking to her. I would be alone and I think the atmosphere would be better. She came back from the university at 1 pm. Told her hello and ask if she had a good day. Her respon se: "It's 1 o'clock, I don't call that a day!" Then later on the phone rang, and she did not botter to aswer it - I was in bed. Finally she said to me..."If you don't sleep tonight, don't ask yourself why!" She made herself super and she never ask me if I wanted to eat!! I feel alone and guilty of feeling depress. I sort of feel that I disturb her, I annoyed her, and probably many others. I know I don't feel good, that i'm very depress... maybe a good night sleep will help.

 

[mamachick]

Tig-your last post sounds like my life with my daughter. I get very hurt at times and am hard on myself. The fact is, your daughter sounds a little critical-like mine. If you dont sleep tonight.....That is how my daughter would respond. I am guessing your daughter is very independent, and you have been there through the years to help her, to fix things for her, or resolve and help her figure out problems in a very productive manner. Now she is wanting to help you when she see's something wrong.
They seem like adults, yet can be very moody. So what if you annoyed her, that is her problem-not yours. If someone or something annoys me-it is up to me to handle it maturely and not bite someones head off. Who doesnt get annoyed.
My daughter, now in law school, has had different room mates every year for 6 years now. She has discovered that anyone you live with is an annoyance, some more than others. Funny, I think now that she considers me the best roomate she ever had. Some eat your food, some are pigs, some bring friends in for days at a time, some are mothering, some are late with bills. Some are just moms. When these girls are mad about something else, they take it out in the safest place possible-their moms-who will love them and forgive them no matter what. So try not to let it get to you. After three daughters all raised-I am finally letting it roll off my back a bit better.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes I agree with brat.
Sounds also like she may be having her own problems (personal) as well. That often comes out as anger or a short fuse.

 

[Jestadud]

Tigrou, one thing I have discovered is that our kids think we know it all, even when they think they know more than us?

My kids selfishness astounds me at times and the offer of any kind of meal is so unusual as to be treated with suspicion.

 

[Jestadud]

Tigrou, only just realised that this is in suicide and depression, so want to stress that our kids have no idea what we feel or go through.

When I think back the holidays were always a balancing act between families, such as we had yours last year so we have to have mine this year!

So close to Christmas I'm not sure what to say, maybe reach out you might be surprised at the response.

 

[Muzikluvr]

(((((((((((Tigrou)))))))))))

I am thinking of you. Please post how you're doing. Please reach out for support.

((((((Linking arms))))))))

 

[tigrou465]

I'm still crying for anything and everything. I'm alone this week and it hard. Don''t know where to stand cause when my daughter is here I want to be alone and when I'm alone I want here to be here!!! I saw my T yesterday and we look at solutions... If I have to get myself admitted to the hospital I need to find a place for my dog and I don't want him in a shelter. And beside I realy don't have money to pay for it. He did offer to send my dog to the lady that take care of his dog. I will pay the lady later on. Also found a place where I can leave my car cause I don't have a steady parking where I live. So my 2 biggest concern are resolve. When you look at it it's small problems but for me it was huge. Today I spent most of the day in bed, barely eat, when out only once with the dog. I sort of need to talk but at the same time don't want to. My doctor was supposed to call his collegue who does the ECT treatment and he was supposed to call me back to five me information befor going for other treatment. Found out that my doctor did not talk. I take that personnal: "He doesn't want to take care of me? I'm a too tough patient? ..." As you can see everything trigger me. I try to talk to myself saying that He probably just had time to call him... Anyways I left him a new message... will see. I'm tired, exhausted and sad. Hope tomorrow will be a better day. I'll keep you posted.

 

[simplekindofgirl]

Hugs to you Tigrou. Many, many, many hugs.

 

[KP the nut]

(((Tig))) I can't type much as my hands are to sore. I just wanted to say, hold on my friend.

Lighting a candle and sending positive thoughts
Love
KP

 

[tigrou465]

Thank you both and sorry to ear about your arms KP. I'm holding on and my main reason for now are my gransdsons. I'll keep you posted and hopefully my doctor will call me tomorrow. xx

 

[intothelight]

(((Tig))),

Take care of yourself. I am praying that your doctor will call you soon and this darkness will lift. It is hard to live with depression and when things knock you down, they really knock you down.

Wishing you some light in this darkness.

Deb