The Big " I'm So Sorry .____" You Fill In The Blank :(

[Loloma]

For my husband soon (ex)
I'm sorry I met you.
I'm sorry I married you.
I'm sorry I stayed with you so long (I'm such an idiot).
I'm sorry that I didn't live up to your expectations.
I'm sorry I gave you everything you've never had
I'm sorry about the many overseas trips, new houses and fancy cars.
I'm sorry I got sick and couldn't work anymore. (Him, "Oh what are we going to do now".)
I'm sorry that I put on weight when I got sick.
I'm sorry you didn't find me sexual attractive anymore.
I'm sorry you have to support yourself now.
I'm sorry you got half of everything I worked hard for.
I'm sorry I'm not paying for the divorce.
I'm sorry, but your a very sorry person.

 

[Loloma]

For my parents:
I’m sorry that you thought you should drown me when I was born.
I’m sorry that you were schizophrenic (my mother).
I’m sorry you felt the need to beat me to a pulp on a regular basis.
I’m sorry that you sexually abused me for years (my father).
I’m sorry you blamed me for the death of my baby sister (who you left me with when I was 12).
I’m sorry you mistreated me, neglected me, and hated me so much.
I’m sorry I was taken away from home suffering from malnutrition three times.
I’m sorry I was hit by a car when riding my brother’s bike, and the embarrassment of the police coming to the door.
I’m sorry for all my brothers and sisters that where “dragged up” in my family.
I’m sorry for the ones that got shot and committed suicide.
I’m sorry that I had you as parents and what you did to us.
I’m (not) sorry I was born.

 

[Lieke]

Wow Loloma, that was so strong of you to write that down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[jo may]

((((((((Loloma)))))))))) omg that was so strong, you are clearly a very brave person. I'm so sorry for everything you have been through.:oops:

 

[jo may]

[quote="Deaf Global Nomad,When I apologize, she laughs and says: "Oh, now you are apologizing for having symptoms?"I am sorry for not just being able to move through the PTSD and live my life to help others.
And oh so many more...[/quote]

We have all been there, are there or never been able to leave there. PTSD isn't something any of us can just move through. though I bet we all wish we could, it just doesn't happen that way it takes time and hard work. And sometimes it means unwrapping things you don't want to. I'm terrorible for trying to box back up my feelings.

You were very brave for doing this and opening up, I wish you much luck with your recovery.

 

[Incendiu]

I have found some new I'm sorry in my life...and thouse are big ones for me...I really have to change them.

I'm sorry that I provoke you (stranger) in some way, but as it is my fault I'll just let you(stranger) ceep on with whatever behaivor you (stranger) have and don't show in a really clear manner that that's not accepted as long as you(stranger) don't step over the line...

then I'm sorry I have to send you(stranger) to the hospital in some way. (well it have not become this serious yet...even if I know it have been close calls. I have found my self getting more and more tollerant to people who acctually abuse my personal sphere, they come to close, act like idiots, sometimes might be a danger...but I don't show any emotion as clear as I should but just wait till I black out in rage. And that's not me...I have always been where clear when I don't find anything okej...so I feel like I have lost something really important and have to find it again.)

 

[jo may]

I'm sorry I developed at a young age.
I'm sorry he thought it was ok to rape me, I was 11.
I'm sorry I took back what I said to the police, I was scared and he wouldn't leave me alone.

I'm sorry I'm easily lead and flattered.
I'm sorry I believed he loved me, I was 13 when I met him.
I'm sorry he started to beat me if I said anything that upset him.
I'm sorry I let him convicne me taking drugs would help.
I'm sorry I let him pay for my habit and my drink habit.
I'm sorry I that when I turned 15 he moved his abuse up a gear.
I'm sorry he would lock me in the house.
I'm sorry I pretended to be asleep when he got in drunk.
I'm sorry I knew he'd been with someone else..
I'm sorry he'd wake me and rape me because he felt like it.
I'm sorry I use to sit in the bath afterwards for hours.
I'm sorry I got pregnant and never left him.
I'm sorry he beat me so badly I lost my baby,I was 15 and very scared.
I'm sorry it me another 3 years to break away from him for good.

I'm sorry I mistook someone's friendship and he attacked me in my own house.
I'm sorry really so very sorry, it made the box in my head pop.
I'm sorry I have PTSD, and you never know what wife your going to get till I'm awake.

I'm sorry I find sex disgusting, I know it hurts you.
I'm sorry all I've been through has resulted in me being very friggid.:cry:

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((JoMay)))))))) ((((((((Incrend))))))))

The "I'm sorry" kept coming from my husband, Supporter, this weekend. Cause for pause....he kept saying he was sorry he was sick?? :( I was sorry he was sick...and watched myself truly NOT be like my mother who would have been furious and cold, slamming draws and pouting.

 

[jo may]

(((((hugs to you Rain))))

I felt so dirty and ashamed after writing that but I must have needed to get it out.

 

[Incendiu]

((((((JoMAY))))))

No need to be ashamed.

 

[jo may]

Thank you Incendiu (((((hugs)))))

I know but I can't help it, first time I've very been that open and honest.:unsure:

 

[Loloma]

((((JoMay))))

It's okay, I know where your coming from. I'm sorry for you....:(