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I met my husband shortly after he returned from his first and so far only deployment(he is wanting to go back). He is so head strong right now about divorce, and blames his tourment and unhappiness on our marriage. It has been a year since he has walked out, but we continue to talk almost daily and still do finances together. His explanations of why our marriage should be ending are he got married because of what he just came back from, and we got married too fast and too young. He didnt leave until after 5 years of marriage, so it is hard for me to believe these are the valid reasons. He thinks if he is rid of me all of his problems are solved. It wasnt until a couple months before he left that things were truly rocky. We were always such an affectionate couple.
For this last year of him being gone, he said he did not have CPTSD or would NEVER go to counseling. Just recently both of those things have changed, he has come to term with the demons he has and has been in counseling. I feel so glad that he is getting help. However, he says that he doesnt love me and is dead set that divorce is the answer instead of working on things. It is astonishing how this illness can take over a person and they block out emotions. I truly believe that he truly does have that love in his heart, but until he can control the demons and twisted rational of our marriage being the cause, he is blind to that emotion towards me and it kills me.
A year ago when I found this site I was so jealous of people who said that their spouses had come to terms with having CPTSD and going to counseling. I felt like those were the last two things on earth my husband would ever do. It has taken a year for this to change. I want this to be a message of hope to those of you reading who feel like your soldier is too prideful to deal with these demons. The last thing they want to hear is that they have CPTSD and NEED help. Only time and prayer can help lead a solider to get the healing he needs. So please pray for my husband and our marriage!
For this last year of him being gone, he said he did not have CPTSD or would NEVER go to counseling. Just recently both of those things have changed, he has come to term with the demons he has and has been in counseling. I feel so glad that he is getting help. However, he says that he doesnt love me and is dead set that divorce is the answer instead of working on things. It is astonishing how this illness can take over a person and they block out emotions. I truly believe that he truly does have that love in his heart, but until he can control the demons and twisted rational of our marriage being the cause, he is blind to that emotion towards me and it kills me.
A year ago when I found this site I was so jealous of people who said that their spouses had come to terms with having CPTSD and going to counseling. I felt like those were the last two things on earth my husband would ever do. It has taken a year for this to change. I want this to be a message of hope to those of you reading who feel like your soldier is too prideful to deal with these demons. The last thing they want to hear is that they have CPTSD and NEED help. Only time and prayer can help lead a solider to get the healing he needs. So please pray for my husband and our marriage!
