The Doomsday Trend

[HëllaBubz]

Oh Hela, You have have moved mountains since this thread

Given the way my body is aching at the moment, I think you might be right Whitney!

:p

It's special though, I'm so glad I can finally give my other half the child he always wanted, and finally kick that maternal nesting in the ass.......when the biological clock starts ticking, it's extremely hard to fight it!

I'm not focusing entirely on the pregnancy though, there is still planning and things to be done for the wedding, I have even more time on my hands now, and more ways of thinking about how to save for the wedding too.

Although, true to the original posts, I'm having a lot of trouble with what I've seen other people label as 'hypervigilance', I didn't notice it as much ON medication, but now that I'm off it, it's actually pretty bad.

I don't know if many of you believe in a Big Guy upstairs, but I think he's watching over me, because at the time when money is the tightest and we were stressing about how I was going to pay for the service dog, my paltry pay out from work cover settlement will be coming through, and it will be enough to pay for all of Gremlin's travel and stuff that he needs.

I find it rather amusing that even though I got completely jibbed on my payout, the payout from the accident is going towards paying for something that is helping me recover from the accident, and it is just enough too!

Sometimes I kick myself for worrying about things because I've found that it really does work out in the end, all you have to do is trust that something will be done, and that nothing is given to you than is more than you are able to bear.

"I know God will not give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much!" - Mother Theresa

 

[Whitneys story]

:D love it! Two of my favorite quotes. All we really need is enough. And I know there is a big guy up there. I just don't believe personally that "IS" is the one written in many bibles. Like we're here living in hell and then will be swooped to peace.

I am so happy you have enough! We tend to not ask, thinking our requests are trivial. I ask until I get what I need.

Have you asked your Dr. If there might be a natural/herbal product to help with nerves etc? I take a natural product for anxiety and it has proved it's weight in gold.

Oh the body, well aren't ours magical how ours can stretch out to make room for little Bubzilla. This will take a break and arise later. Do we have a due date yet? And when will the pup be arriving. Lot's of excitement make sure you are getting plenty of mental rest. When things arise take a breath or two and realize an answer is coming. It helps to focus rather than scatter the thoughts. You are doing great! How much weight has Rhett gained? Just kidding. :) :hug: Whitney

 

[HëllaBubz]

I am so happy you have enough! We tend to not ask, thinking our requests are trivial. I ask until I get what I need.

I think things started falling into place when I took a deep breath at the Schnauzer breeder's and reconciled myself to the fact that if I was meant to have the puppy, it would have happened.

As it was, that breeder and his wife were the ones who recommended checking out organizations for failed guide dogs etc, and that's what put me on the path to Gremlin.

Mum HATES the name of the dog, but it really resonates with me, because he truly will be helping me manage *my* gremlins, and by the time he's done, the only one left will be a curly haired adorable one that I'll be wanting to keep!

The due date is the 7th of December.

Gremlin is travelling from Brisbane to Newcastle this Saturday, where he'll be spending a few weeks with a dog trainer to make sure that he didn't pick up any unmanageable habits with his previous owners.

Then I'll fly up and spend a few days at the dog trainer's house, bonding and learning the dog and his quirks.

Then after that, if all goes well, we will catch the interstate train overnight back to Melbourne, where the other half will be waiting for us.

I'm anticipating that I will be heading up to Newcastle around the 15th of June, so I think I should have him by the 19th or 20th.
I'm finding that I need to have no more than one appointment per day, otherwise I get completely exhausted.

My psychiatrist took very ill on Tuesday night last week, and it appears that he is hospitalized and not likely to recover for some weeks. As a result I made an appointment with my old psychologist, which I attended today.

Have to admit, I did not enjoy it; I like the man, but I do not enjoy the fact that I cannot debrief with him about my current issues and how to deal with the symptoms I'm currently experiencing.

He tends to gloss over issues I raise, and focus more on positive accomplishments, which I can understand; but that being said, I need to understand what the hell is happening to me, and how I can cope with it, or coping mechanisms that I can develop or work on.

I have been offered access to a bank of psychiatrists from one of the offices that my psychiatrist operates out of, all 190 of them, so at least there is not a lack of assistance if I need it.

Yes, the little Bubzilla is chugging along nicely, and has made up their mind that I can eat vegetables again, so I thoroughly enjoyed a bowlful of steamed winter veg and baked potato in cheese sauce today at a cafe.

Perhaps I can start enjoying my bowls of Greek Salads again!