The Dreaded End-of-year Three Week Break

[ms spock]

Yes Hashi,

I am going to watch some dvds.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Do you usually have to sleep after your appt? I always do.

 

[samson]

That's true Ms. Spock. It seems weird to think about HIM having therapy. :)

 

[Ayasha]

I hope it's OK that this made me smile. It sounds like she really wants you to email. I'm sorry that your situation over the holidays is stressful, but hope you can get through OK.

It's okay, it makes me smile too. My T is one of the first adults I've ever trusted and I think she's developed that look for me and a few of her other more stubborn clients.

And I'm doing my best to get through, I read a lot and go into my own world until I am allowed to go back to school-- I come out of my world when my nieces and nephews are over, I love playing with them.

We can all make it through, I know it. :)

 

[Abstract]

I'm already not doing well, and the break hasn't even started yet. I dreamt last night that I went to the wrong place for my last appointment, then tried to go to the right place, then got lost, while the time was ticking away. I was wearing a crazy amount of knitwear - several jumpers, then a big thick cable knit jumper, then a big thick cable knit cardigan over that. Could I perhaps be feeling in need of comfort and protection? :rolleyes:
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Hashi,
Hugs if OK. I think you are actually doing really well as you are talking about it, are aware and have strategies in mind. The rest is just painful and horrid regardless!

I hope you don't mind but I smiled when I read about the layers of wool. :shy: In a painful way. Its a very graphic representation isn't it?

It's always hard for me to go back after a break, but at least I can maintain something of the Tuesday = Therapy habit.

That actually sounds like a really good plan! I sympathise with how hard it is to reach out again after any distance. Even a week is often hard for me. I don't seem to be able to hold that space very easily.

It sounds like you have made wonderful progress in trusting with your T. That is no small victory and you should be proud. You will get through this.

Hugs to everyone else. Wish I could wave a magic wand but sadly it doesn't work that way.

 

[ms spock]

Do you usually have to sleep after your appt?

I generally nap on the way back on the train. It was is a two hour journey.

 

[ms spock]

I pretty much slept the whole day and watched a few dvds and napped whilst they were on. I made my self get up and go to a meeting about art school next year. I cried when I got up. Then I got myself going. I went to the meeting and then I came back. It was hard because one of my art school friends invited me to Xmas and I diverted the attention on to another art school friend and then the two women started discussing Xmases of their childhood, and one with their children in their early childhood. And I had a bad anxiety attack and I almost went down with a panic attack. It was a real trigger for me.

 

[Hashi]

Ms Spock, well done for getting through such a tough day. I'm glad at least that day's behind you now.

 

[ms spock]

That's true Ms. Spock. It seems weird to think about HIM having therapy. :)

All good therapists are in supervision, in therapy or therapy supervision groups. So it is good to keep this in mind. It is for our protection too.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Hugs to you Ms. Spock. That is a long trip! I have to drive an hour, so I guess it would be close to 2 on the train. I would take the train but it is a mile from the train to the office, and I am having back problems. Maybe after surgery.

 

[faraway]

Thank you everyone for making me feel less like a pathetic baby for experiencing separation anxiety for the holidays. I've got my last session this week and then a three week break as well. One of me is really afraid about this, but the mean one is angry at her for being so pathetic and afraid. I need to make the mean one shut the eff up and let the comforting one do her job instead. Why are the mean ones who lack compassion so loud? Urgh.

Anyway, I'm also all alone this holiday period. I don't mind though: it's been this way every year for a while. I'll do my sewing and reading and cooking and exercise some too.

Strength to us all.

 

[DharmaGirl]

And you can stop in here since I at least will be checking in. I realized that I cut out most of my holiday stuff and don't invite people anymore. I hope that will change.