Years ago when I began therapy, I went to a retreat to find out that I had "frozen" feelings.
The main reason was over the times when I would go to visit the family for Christmas. No reason to go into detail about those times but it was highly suggested when I got home, that my family of choice to give me a Xmas in July party, and they did.
In the office where I worked, a Christmas tree and lights were put up, decorations and goodies everywhere, and then we all exchanged gifts.
I was given the most adorable teddy bear you have ever seen which signified my inner child. Her name was "Tender Heart". This was one Christmas that I wanted to remember and still do!