Whereas just below you characterize my narrative as `going all over the map', I experience your spurious use of `because' as placing a `you are here' on your personal map.
I seriously doubt you have a clue as to the actual causality of what you claim as if cut and dry, and factual.
You are going all over the map on your rant and I can’t really follow it..
I didn't write it for you personally to understand or you as someone who identifies with `military' and having a subforum within this group to express yourself among like-minded, military-oriented PTSD-afflicted folks.
So I feel no failure of mission in that someone who poses an either-or, black-or-white juxtaposition of military OR law enforcement ... while not even mentioning civilian-non-military PTSD or complex PTSD.
You've evinced one of the themes woven into that narrative you likened as `going all over the map': you and other military-minded types typically DON'T GET IT.
You don't look-for and/or don't acknowledge how your upbringing (EG nurture as contrasted with nature) primed you for entry into the military branch in which you enlisted.
Have you ever, for example, pondered why you didn't join the peace corp, or the coast guard?
Has it ever crossed your mind that your upbringing primed you for `kill or be killed' scenarios in a way those not thusly primed and conditioned weren't?
While in the navy I had seal team wash outs for room mates at two separate bases.
The last one used to eat beer glasses at the Enlisted Man's club by night then scream and shit blood in the morning after.
It sucks identifying with an image of Self as macho then ringing that wash-out bell like a wuss THEN having to live with one's Persona fronting for a `very stable genius' Self in the aftermath.
So, as far you understanding my post, feel free to belay my last; it was written for those who MIGHT `get it'.
There will be no quiz, so feel free to stand down and seek solace with your Seal team bros.