As a more rational post I hope from me (and this I promise is the last one from me here), I hear you all. And I don't want to leave it as a last message on the bile up above I said.
You don't need to apologise about anything imho Wagon, you always make intelligent points here from what I see. At risk of sounding like a naff break up line; the problem's me not you. I have to live with that, you guys don't and shouldn't. And won't anymore.
I hear you on written word not always coming across as it's meant without seeing the whites of eyes or body language for connotations etc. If I am on one and see what I percieve a slight to something (in my mind said or meant differing to being told this or that is recieved) then I will always bite back too irrationally aggressively for my own good. At risk of sounding like a naff break up line.....yeah.
Getting in to a bitch fest with Zipper is pointless. He said/you said/I said etc. Everybody loses.
We all have mates from different nationalities or ethnicities and if anything I said was taken as attack on any persons you might know under a nationality label then sorry. I didn't mean it like that. We all have demons and bogeymen and all three sides in that farking place changed forever my faith in all humans or humanity; Brit as well. If the Bosnians can do what I saw to each other, we all can.
If any of you can hand on heart say that you hear the word "vietnamese", "afghan", "arab" or "irish" or wherever your demons were born and it doesn't conjure up something deep down then I envy you. My demons are born in the Bosnian war, so it messes my perceptions straight off. It does not mean your mate from the region is anything bad to me; we're all humans, not our character linked in to a nationality. I met a lot of very very impressive Bosnians as well. A hell of a lot.
Back in the day working with a lot of equally irrationally aggressive idiots like me these things got sorted by going round the back and somebody getting banged out then it's forgotten, moved on with whats pissed you off and back for tea and scones. I liked it that way. That doesn't work in civvy street and it definitely doesn't work online. Maybe I was a caveman in a past life and just found p for plenty like-minded in the Corps, but I will always give an opinion, say what I see and find it hard to back off if somebody challenges it (or I percieve they are). Again that's my problem not yours.
I can only apologise to you all, but nothing excuses saying sorry for the same thing twice+ and not changing. It won't happen again because I'm offski. You have a great resource here as a collective, but as said it's not for me and I'm not for you. No hard feelings this end at all. Done, dusted and forgotten.
Take care all and best of luck in the journey that is life for the future. All of you. I hope we can all find peace one day.
...and I will try to close the door quietly on my way out without it banging me in the arse. :D