Fahrenheit451
Silver Member
When I was first diagnosed with PTSD I was pretty much a huge wreck. But after years of going to my psychologist I think I’m doing pretty good. Sessions are farther and farther apart which is a good thing. I still have nightmares and I still get flashbacks, just not as bad as I used to or as often. And I recover way faster.
Last week at my session my Psych. said she wanted to start on EMDR again to deal with some more of the worst calls from my career. That means weekly visits and reliving a bunch of stuff from my past. The problem is that I can easily think of 50 or 60 traumatic calls without even trying. And most of my flashbacks don’t even include those, there’s another ton in the closet just waiting. 32 years of firefighting takes its toll.
The EMDR sessions really kick the hell out of me and to tell you the truth nowadays I think I get more upset thinking about what’s to come than the relief I get after it’s over.
So......when do you know it’s time to take a break and just try to manage on your own?
Last week at my session my Psych. said she wanted to start on EMDR again to deal with some more of the worst calls from my career. That means weekly visits and reliving a bunch of stuff from my past. The problem is that I can easily think of 50 or 60 traumatic calls without even trying. And most of my flashbacks don’t even include those, there’s another ton in the closet just waiting. 32 years of firefighting takes its toll.
The EMDR sessions really kick the hell out of me and to tell you the truth nowadays I think I get more upset thinking about what’s to come than the relief I get after it’s over.
So......when do you know it’s time to take a break and just try to manage on your own?