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There is a hell. it's in my dreams.

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freebird

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They say hell is in the afterlife, but I see it every night.

Last night I couldn't get away from this monster. Everywhere I went, he would find me. When I escaped his traps, blood would fill the streets and the sky and he would be there running after me. If he couldn't catch me, he would torture, rape, and kill other girls.

The worst nightmare I had this month was about these other kind of monsters, who made human traps and used them for tests and torture. I watched in horror as I saw my sister disappear into this unimaginable place. I cried and cried as I saw her innocently wandering and fell in. As I cried I woke up sobbing and couldn't function for the rest of the day. Thinking about it still makes me emotional.

I can't save my baby sister:cry::cry::cry::bawling: and she is still with my abuser!!!!:arghh;:arghh;:arghh;:arghh;
 
Hi @freebird.... Nightmares are awful... And I'm so sorry you're dealing with them

Its your sister that is troubling you most?... She is still with the abuser..?.. That's horrible.. I guess all you can do is be there for her.... I take it your worrying more than usual...?.. Hence the Nightmare?

Also the nightmares do go...they get less and less with time and therapy... Hugs
 
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How old is your sister? Is this something current the authorities should be stepping in on or is it a memory/nightmare of what happened in the past?
 
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She is 16, so she can't get away. We have talked about emancipation, but it's just impossible because abuser is a narc, will play the victim and get away with it. I have told her to be aware that abuser is not stable so she doesn't end up like me. Abuser punishes her all the time and isolates her because she doesn't want to be in the religion. A few months ago she went out the house to escape the hell fights, and ended staying out for like 6 hours. Abuser called the police, police filed her a runaway.:mad:

I am not in the country, so I can't help her:cry:, and abuser keeps taking over her social media.:banghead:

My sister is incredibly talented, gorgeous, and kind-hearted. She is smart and would never do anything to hurt anyone. She doesn't deserve this.:(
 
@freebird I am so sorry. I can’t begin to imagine what that feels like.
The monster has haunted me at night before and it is so terrifying.
Just wanted you to know I’m here sitting with you.
 
Thank you so much faith. It's so hard to watch her go through torture and not be able to do anything about it. It's the hardest thing in the world. Even harder than the mental complications.

I can't call authorities because that will put abuser on fire, claiming the whole family is against her and then ultimately end my sister and punish the rest of the family members, including me. Plus the authorities already put a bias on my sister that will affect their understanding of her.

I'm sorry about the monsters faith. We'll make them go away together:hug:
 
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I'm so sad for both of you. Is it safe to assume you are not in the states?

Maybe you could show your sister some of the posts on this site so she could know that there are many people in her situation who know what she is going through and they are here to encourage her?
 
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Hugs to you too Faith!

That's a great idea Freida, thank you! I will try to get in contact with her later and see.

Yes, I'm overseas.
 
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