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This Isn't Easy

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ruffdeal

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Hi everyone, I came here seeking understanding of PTSD because of unrelenting symptoms that I needed answers for.

I was abused as a child and have had two other major trauma's in my life that pushed me over the edge to depths I could never have imagined.

I was diagnosed around age thirty after seeing a doctor for depression. About a year and a half into it he told me I had PTSD. He never mentioned it again I never really gave it any thought. I didn't know what it was.

I haven't taken any meds in over three years and well, haven't worked in two years (not a real job). So no job, no money, no insurance, no help. Not being able to find work has really taken
it's toll on me.
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My second major event was my family being destroyed by all the men being imprisoned. I was raised in a crime family that carries my name. Enough said...I moved far away and started my life over.

I had to....it still haunts me.

My last and most recent was a divorce from my wife of twenty two years. One day she told me she had met someone new. I am just now getting back on my feet from that after seven years of hell.

I have had a lot of memory issues with repeating myself or just completely losing the next word in a sentence as though it never existed. Then while trying to remember the word, forget the
entire conversation. Anxiety,depression and extreme fatigue are my usual enemies.

I have lived a decent life in spite of it all. I have two kids that are both now in college and recently started a new friendship with my oldest friend......My ex-wife

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Hi RuffDeal,

PTSD is no ones friend! I'm glad you found us. I hope that you find something to hold onto here.

I don't have PTSD, my wife does (my second wife). I lost my first wife (of 7 years) in a somewhat similar situation. Probably because I didn't have PTSD, I only went through that hell for about a year. Anyway, in a small way, I feel like I know what you've been going through.

Take Care,

Bear
 
Hi Ruff Deal,

I hope that you find support here. I have PTSD which also comes from my messed up family. It's a long road but take it easy.
 
Welcome RuffDeal,

I'm glad you are here. It sounds like are going through quite a bit. I hope that you are find the support you need here.

Rain
 
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