I have thought I might have thyroid issues for years now. When I get tested, they don't find anything wrong. Most of my life I have struggled with my weight. Over the last year (it's been a very stressful one) I have lost over 23 pounds. I'll gain back 10 lbs and lose it again within a few weeks. I'm tired all the time (have major sleep issues), have no energy, feel very weak. I have to eat constantly or I feel ill - shaky, nauseous, sweaty and irritable. I am 5'8" tall and now weigh about 112 lbs. I fluctuate between a size 4 and 5.
A year ago I weighed 135 lbs. I had maintained that weight for over 5 years after struggling with being overweight most of my adult life (since the age of 18). I got down to 135 lbs. after a bout of IBS, where I lost 25 lbs. in a month. I also have a major potassium deficiency (don't know if there is a correlation between this and thyroid disorders). I have looked at the symptoms of hyperthyroidism and I have all the symptoms.
I was tested last January. The first test came back very abnormal. The second test came back normal. I felt a third test should have been done, but the doc said it wasn't necessary. I have a family history of Thyroid disease. I am depressed quite often; my moods swing a lot throughout the day. I have PTSD. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was 27 years old and was on medication until last Feb. On meds I was hypo-manic for the last 6 years.
I really don't think I am Bipolar, but I could be - who knows? All I know, is that on meds I was manic. Off meds I have not had a manic episode, but am very moody. I'm 44, so I'm sure menopause is playing a part, as well. I have severe PMS now; severe depression and suicidal ideation, crying jags and irritability 10-14 days a month before onset of period.
I feel like I am going crazy because I do not know what my diagnosis is or how to get a Dr. to listen to me to get properly diagnosed. I feel like a walking mental illness - PTSD, Bipolar Disorder, PMDD and Alcoholism( I'm a recovering alcoholic - thank God - got one of them figured out; A Day At A Time.)
I have been depressed and suicidal since I was 6 years old. I have taken meds most of my adult life and my depression has never gotten better (except when my meds made me hypo-manic for 6 years). LOL!! I actually thought I was getting better and was just happy.
I have been in therapy for over 20 years. I finally got a great counselor and made a lot of progress over a year, however, I relocated out of state and am not in counseling at the moment. Have to make another appt. I missed the last one due to no transportation. God, I feel like a Whack Job!!
I am very overwhelmed and confused. I pray constantly, however, that only helps a little. I don't know if my problem is psychological, physical or hormonal - or worse - all of the above!! Please help. I have no idea what to do - where to start. I have lost faith in doctors completely. They don't listen. They say it's all in my head. Partly, they are correct. I really feel something is physically wrong, as well. I feel that needs to be addressed first; before looking at it from a Psych Issue Perspective.
I've also read over the years that thyroid issues can be misdiagnosed as Bipolar Disorder. Maybe I do have Bipolar Disorder. My line of thinking is this...If this is the case, then why in over 20 ( started antidepressants at 21 yrs. old - anti-psychotics at 27 yrs. old) years of trying different medications did I get worse not better? They never found an antidepressant that worked. I was still depressed. I never had a manic episode until after being on antidepressants. And after years of being a guinea pig, I became hypo-manic for 6 years while on anti-psychotics and antidepressants( the only time I wasn't depressed). Sorry if this is hard to follow. I'm just desperate for answers and some understanding(compassion).
Anyway, I guess I had to verbally vomit (vulgar, I know -sorry - that's what it feels like). I have no idea if there is any help for me. I'll keep praying. It's the only thing that gives me hope.