Tired Of Feeling Unwell

[amy]

I'm tired of this constant feeling of ....what? I cant even find the right words to describe how I'm feeling. Its too complicated. I feel physically and mentally exhausted. It never ends and I doubt it ever will.

I tell GP who refers me back to consultant shrink, he refers me to a gateway appt with a CPN ... who sends me an appt for 3 weeks time. A lifetime away. I want to be gone. I want to be here for my daughter, but I am so overwhelmed, I dont know what to do, I'm too tired.

Everything is spinning and I cant get a grip on anything.

 

[a3a2]

Sending you a hug, Amy. When I am feeling this way, my t reminds me to take it easy. Go ahead and crawl in bed for a bit. I hope you get a decent appointment soon.

 

[missd84]

I know the feeling Amy. Do what you can do to make it till you get an appointment. Wishing you the best.

 

[amy]

Thanks guys .... x

 

[Nighthawk]

Amy,

You and I are on a never ending or what feels like a never ending Ferris wheel of overwhelmed, exhausted, saddened, lost in our heads, drained beyond belief ride. I want to know how to get off. I feel like a broken Ferris wheel rocking back and forth waiting to be fixed and trying so hard to find the problem. I am an infestation at the moment to myself I think and yet the only thing you and I can do is make it through another day. One step, one moment one day. I know it gets better.

Things I have done in the past that has helped if even a little is one task a plant and let it grow tend to it water it and see its growth. I hope that medical support comes soon for you and you can make it. I have not been to TT in a month. I am finally going on Thursday it has been a tough road waiting but it is finally here. I have faith in you; hold on it will get better.

Sending you a rope to hold onto.

NH

 

[amy]

Hi NH

What you wrote is exactly how I feel. I'm sorry that others have to feel this way too. Its funny you mentioned growing a plant, I find that no matter how exhausted I am, IF I can drag myself outside to a park or woodland somewhere, and simply breathe whilst looking at the trees and flowers, just 'be' then I feel a little more peaceful inside. Sounds strange, but I love nature. Somedays I really can not summon the energy to go out, so a plant is probably a good idea.

I do not have any plants as my mother had so many in the house as I grew up, a house full of plants reminds me of her, not good at all. I tend to always have fresh flowers in, but next time I go out, I will buy a plant, just one.

I thank you for the rope to hold on to, cling on to more like!!!

I wish you lots of love and luck for your appt on Thursday, and every other day too.

You take care xxxx

 

[a3a2]

Make it an aloe plant....it has healing properties.... ; - )