Theasylumsystem
Confident
I feel better to feel worse. The cycle rinses and repeats.
I want to feel free from it all. I want the endless cycle to stop. I'm so exhausted from fighting to survive. I want to be able to feel at peace for just a moment. I'm tired of getting better to get 2000% worse. I'm tired of looking over my shoulder constantly. I'm tired of not being good enough for anyone or myself. I'm burnt out. I want to be done with it all. It's not even that I want to die really. I want it to stop. I want it all to stop and I can't find a way out.
I hate this. I hate feeling like no matter what the f*ck I do or how hard I try I'm just going to end up back here. it all seems so pointless. I don't know what I'm fighting for anymore.
At some point, I feel like my "resistance" is just foolishness. I can't give up because I'm a coward and I'm too stupid to know when to quit. It's all pointless. There's nothing left in me. I don't feel like there's any fight or drive left. I'm just... done.
I want to feel free from it all. I want the endless cycle to stop. I'm so exhausted from fighting to survive. I want to be able to feel at peace for just a moment. I'm tired of getting better to get 2000% worse. I'm tired of looking over my shoulder constantly. I'm tired of not being good enough for anyone or myself. I'm burnt out. I want to be done with it all. It's not even that I want to die really. I want it to stop. I want it all to stop and I can't find a way out.
I hate this. I hate feeling like no matter what the f*ck I do or how hard I try I'm just going to end up back here. it all seems so pointless. I don't know what I'm fighting for anymore.
At some point, I feel like my "resistance" is just foolishness. I can't give up because I'm a coward and I'm too stupid to know when to quit. It's all pointless. There's nothing left in me. I don't feel like there's any fight or drive left. I'm just... done.