I have a hard time stopping dissociation and altered personality states because I do not know what is real or what is not anymore. It is all so very confusing. I have spent a lot of time figuring out what is the real me, the real personality, how it feels like not dissociating. That the antidote to dissociation is grounding in the moment, is not really working for me. Take everything I say with a grain of salt, I do not have a therapist yet.
I am also not sure if I make the correct assumption, that entering differing personality states is a form of dissociation.
But here is what I do.
As long as I feel like have emotions, I accept the state I am in. Sometimes I noticed, there is nothing emotional going on in me, and then I listened to music or watch stuff that I know makes me feel. I percieve the state of being emotionless as not acceptable to whoever I am. Whatever happens and whatever state I am in, I try to accept, and listen and work with it, and do not push it off, as long I feel something is going on in the emotional center of my brain. As long as I feel I have a soul, one could say, I feel okay.
It can be difficult when the anger, the rage or the sadness comes, but I feel it got easier. Does this have anything to do with you? I am in a very confused state right now, sorry if I misunderstood.
Basically, I try to work with it instead of fighting it.
I am also not sure if I make the correct assumption, that entering differing personality states is a form of dissociation.
But here is what I do.
As long as I feel like have emotions, I accept the state I am in. Sometimes I noticed, there is nothing emotional going on in me, and then I listened to music or watch stuff that I know makes me feel. I percieve the state of being emotionless as not acceptable to whoever I am. Whatever happens and whatever state I am in, I try to accept, and listen and work with it, and do not push it off, as long I feel something is going on in the emotional center of my brain. As long as I feel I have a soul, one could say, I feel okay.
It can be difficult when the anger, the rage or the sadness comes, but I feel it got easier. Does this have anything to do with you? I am in a very confused state right now, sorry if I misunderstood.
Basically, I try to work with it instead of fighting it.
