Tomorrow Is My Birthday

[Mapi]

Tomorrow is my birthday. It's a big one. I really didn't think much about it this year. I was busy. Really busy. I have spent the last several months trying to pull myself out of this terrible place I've been living in my head. I'm sad. I'm sad that instead of being happy and grateful for another wonderful day on this earth I am upset that I am not in a better mental place.
I feel I am changed and I want to go back to who I was or move forward to who I'm supposed to be but the movement is just so damn slow!!!! I hate this!! I have spent almost half a year like this and I just want it to be better.
I have people who love me and who support me. I am thankful for them. Right now they are not celebrating with me. It all feels like pity and I can't stand it.
What do you do to get through these days?

 

[Toraf]

Up events I'm low for? I move. Ideally, in any event. Different day, week, month. Until I can celebrate it how I actually want to.

These Are The Days I Hate kind of days? If it's a bad idea to sleep through them, I am often found eyeballs deep in gaming/netflix/books if my body is also checked out for the duration, or out doing something physical, for as long as I can.

 

[Wekaf]

Based on your post I'm guessing you have adult trauma so I can't relate on that front.

However it's good to learn to accept where you are in life and that the healing journey may be a long and difficult path.

 

[Hibini]

Tomorrow is my birthday. It's a big one. I really didn't think much about it this year. I was busy. Really busy. I h...

My mantra is one day at a time. Sometimes it is one minute or one second. Family can't relate? I get ya. Mine too. But we can. Hang in. You aren't alone. Sometimes the little things mean the most. Making the journey is so hard and long but we must all remember the simple joys or at least try to. Mine is books.

 

[Eheve]

Tomorrow is my birthday. It's a big one. I really didn't think much about it this year. I was busy. Really busy. I h...

My birthday was yesterday...turned 50 ....if I HAD to TYPE something it would be exactly what you just typed........Im so grateful that this site exists.......I searched and searched and searched then found this ........these are the only people that GET IT !

 

[Obit]

I can certainly relate to your frustration about the slowness of progress and the feeling of having plateaued. It can feel like there's a chasm between where you started and where you still want to go, and your stuck right in the middle of it with no clear path forward.

At times like those, I find it's helpful to be as kind to myself as possible. I excuse myself from most social obligations (socializing is very draining for me). I revisit favorite movies, TV shows, and music. I indulge in some comfort foods. I just try to make my environment as comfortable and satisfying as possible within my means. Maybe it would be helpful to you to try something similar?

 

[Bowazu]

First...HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :hug:
I just had the big 6 0. Yes, it's older, but it is really just a number. A few months ago I was in denial...but I knew it was inevitable. I did make it known that I didn't want a party. :rolleyes:I don't like being the center of attention.

I understand wanting to "go back" to who we were. After my 2 year breakdown, I knew I would never be the same.

Have you gone through some big changes, or several changes? Maybe it's this time of year...being so close to the holidays?

I hope that your day is better than you expectt!:hug:

 

[Fidod]

Based on your post I'm guessing you have adult trauma so I can't relate on that front.

However it's good to learn to a...

I will never ever accept this ever !

 

[Ukam]

Tomorrow is my birthday. It's a big one. I really didn't think much about it this year. I was busy. Really busy. I h...

Yup right there with you.

 

[Iwod]

Im new to this site maybe its me but what are these characters that are supposed to represent us? the cartoon figures?? and Im always a different one so hows anyone to keep track of whos responding to who?

 

[Abowi]

what are these characters that are supposed to represent us? the cartoon figures?? and Im always a different one so hows anyone to keep track of whos responding to who?

This thread is posted in the anonymous forum so all posters are automatically anonymised. To clarify who you are responding to it is helpful to use the quote function.

 

[Asisiv]

@obit
I am going to try very hard to be thankful for what I do have and do minimal things. It's not the time of year just the duration of my journey that is bringing me down. Thank you for understanding.