Tomorrow/is This Normal?

[Deleted member 37474]

1st time last week. I Like my Dr. I feel that I can trust her in a professional capacity. She seemed validating and empathetic on our first visit. Since then has been a roller coaster of emotions, flashbacks, body memories, to a complete hault to a point where I almost convinced myself that I don't have ptsd and that the rape never happened. And I go back tomorrow and I feel the panic that I may have to uncover and say things that I might regret and that she will think I am disgusting. Is this normal?

 

[Bristol]

Unfortunately yes its normal, ive been going since August and i battle with this still each time. Hopefully it gets better eventually!

 

[Deadman]

Normal :)

 

[Justmehere]

It is very common to have symptoms get worse even after the first session. Really predictably common.It's also really common to be anxious and nervous about sessions, and worried about saying too much or revealing too much and the doc or therapist would think of the client badly...

Something to keep in mind: Therapy stuff is so predictably destabilizing that it's good to pace the work. Be sure to tell the doc about how your symptoms spiked after the session, and how you are feeling nervous about this session, and that they might see you as disgusting based on what you might reveal to them. A good doc will help navigate this so it's not so distressing and difficult.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

Just finished therapy, had to call my support friend, I now think of her as my "after therapist." Thank God she knows I will be calling. This work is so hard. Still like my Dr. But, oh my God. I hate the pain of these emotions.

 

[Frenzy3674]

1st time last week. I Like my Dr. I feel that I can trust her in a professional capacity. She seemed...

Yes it is.