Too Embarrassed To Face My Therapist Again

[ButterflyBean]

@FindingMyself88 Do you have a plan for support when your therapist is away? I would love to be part of that support network! Please read my previous reply if you haven't already. I have a significant physical disability, and I've had many of the medical tests you mentioned. So, I can help you navigate them and the results if you would like. Lots of hugs if you would like them!

 

[FindingMyself88]

Thank you @HollyBeans27, I would greatly appreciate the support. I hope you got what you needed from your T!

I saw my T today instead of yesterday which ended up being really good because I had a complete breakdown last night and was on the verge of being suicidal. She has a friend that I saw the last time she was out that she asked me to see again. The original plan was for me to only see her friend once or twice after family reunion in July to decompress- but with everything going on she asked me to see her friend weekly. So I do have my first appointment scheduled the week my therapist leaves.

We also decided to put EMDR on hold for now. We did a few container exercises and will do some more Tuesday at our last session. She told me to dig out my coping skills and rely on them heavily during this time.

I would really like to talk to you more, especially as the next week or so unfolds and we (hopefully) find out what is going on.