Tossed Aside Again

[HelenB]

Praying for peace for you and for you to be able to find some emotional safety and really hope the meds help with the sleep and nightmares.

God bless
Helen

 

[mytai]

The lady who brings the food trays just asked me how I was doing with keeping food down. I told her so far, so good. She is super nice and friendly and just made me cry.

She came to pick up my tray and she told me that I need to get better and healthy. That I'm a beautiful girl who deserves to live a good life.

 

[HelenB]

I am so glad she is good and friendly, which is what you deserve and I hope you can really take on board her words because it is true that you do deserve to live a good life and I am praying for more peace and care for you, which you deserve so much.

God bless
Helen

 

[Echo]

@mytai - it is true; that lady is right. I'm so glad you have lovely people around you. Please believe them. I know it is hard; we are left with such awful self-esteem by our attackers, but those low-lives are not right about anything. They want to capture beauty and goodness and innocence, because it is what they lack, and they can never take it away from someone like you. You already stand for so much that is good and loving. You've done well at work and you've helped people here, and you've reached out to Chelsea at your worst moment. Don't let the darkness swallow you up. Know that you stand for the opposite of it.

 

[greenleaf]

You do deserve to live a good life! You deserve to be treated with kindness, and I'm very glad that you've made it to a place with some nice, smart folks.

 

[novemberDark]

Mytai, the system re- victimization is not YOUR doing. You're by far not alone in this, you seem so hard on yourselve.

It's true that you now have created a track record. If someone else comes forward they'll have more ammo if they chose to go the legal way.

You too have an incredible force inside of you to keep yourself save. Trust it and don't be afraid of that kind of force either.

Maybey someone will find me forsaken for saying this, but it helps staying aware of your own strengths, when feeling save is required.

Whishing you well and hoping you can take pride in what you've been able to accomplish, during these hell times.

 

[Ryn]

she told me that I need to get better and healthy. That I'm a beautiful girl who deserves to live a good life.

And she is right. :) (((mytai)))

 

[mytai]

Had a heart scare last night. They ran a bunch of test, my heart wasn't damaged. But in those tests they picked up that I did liver damage. They don't know how much at this time, they said it is a wait and see type thing. Keep checking it, watch out for abnormal bleeding, yellowing of my skin.

 

[HelenB]

Sorry to hear that and am praying for full restoration and healing physically and emotionally and for you to receive the freedom you deserve to have life and have it in its fullness.
God bless
Helen

 

[Echo]

@mytai - I'm so sorry you're having to go through one thing after another. And I hope your results won't be as bad as you think they might be. The liver can regenerate itself over time, whereas, of course, the heart can't. So hopefully any damage will sort itself out in due course. I'm glad you're still in safe hands. Do you feel like you're getting any rest? I do hope so.

 

[macca]

@mytai I am without words for what you are going through. I haven't been on the forum much lately, but have been thinking of you. Like echo said, the liver is an amazing organ and can regenerate. I am very glad that you are being looked after so well.

 

[mytai]

Haven't been getting a whole lot of sleep lately. Between nightmares and pain it's been hard. Tonight I had to fight for the new meds. The psych team wants me to start them but the medical team doesn't. So I just now got the new meds to maybe help with the nightmares. But they also have to see how it affects my blood pressure, because it is a blood pressure medication primarily.