Honestly, I'm probably still a bit in denial that I have PTSD. Or a lot in denial. But I can't deny that there is something wrong with me, because I have night terrors, I self-harm, I can't focus and it's hard to remember I'm safe now(actually, I'm still trying to understand this concept).
Last year I suddenly remembered/realized I was sexually abused by my cousin(I'm still not sure of the details, it's like I can't remember very well even if I try. Not to mention I was four or five years old) and I 'broke' in a manner of speaking. I'm seeing counselors on campus but they are not always available, so I thought I'd try this.
I won't lie, I absolutely hate talking about my past but maybe if I start to it will get easier and maybe I'll stop having so many nightmares and I can take control of my life.
Last year I suddenly remembered/realized I was sexually abused by my cousin(I'm still not sure of the details, it's like I can't remember very well even if I try. Not to mention I was four or five years old) and I 'broke' in a manner of speaking. I'm seeing counselors on campus but they are not always available, so I thought I'd try this.
I won't lie, I absolutely hate talking about my past but maybe if I start to it will get easier and maybe I'll stop having so many nightmares and I can take control of my life.
