Hi. I'm in the UK and have been suffering from PTSD for some time now. Feels like a lifetime. After I fell down a flight of stairs at work I really was not expecting all of this. Once i had got over the physical symptoms I thought I was going to be ok, but then the intrusive, horrid, nightmare like flashbacks came at night, through the day and have plagued me since.
I can't sleep, concentrate, have been prescribed sleeping pills and anti psychotic drugs which I have tried to resist until now. I thought I must be able to deal with these symptoms in my own, more natural way. I guess I thought they would just get better and go away but they have not. In fact they have got much worse over the past two months.
I have collapsed twice at work, cannot concentrate at all, have no patience or tolerance, am completely detached from my partner emotionally. I hide symptoms from her but I am sure she knows. I am both scared and shamed of my symptoms.
I feel angry towards my employers for not making the stairs safe, whilst st same time I cry and get upset. I am just a complete mess.
my therapist is good, but I just feel like giving up now. I am so tired of it all. its so good to read other sufferers stories if anything to make me feel more normal and not just a freak like I feel now.
would love to hear from others.
Jim
