I have a baby doll that I bought so I could cuddle her, she is a life sized baby doll, wears infant sized 0-3 months cloths and usually sits on my couch. She freaked out my neighbor. I cannot bring myself to cuddle her much, but I have a few times. I'm usually home alone, so I don't know why I feel uneasy cuddling her, but I just do. I have never been able to have children, and miscarried 7 times. I bought her to ease that sorrow. However, I just cannot bring myself to cuddle her or play with her. Maybe I will do so today. I love changing her cloths and I buy cloths for her sometimes and I look at cloths for her in stores, even though I don't always plan to buy them. I have bought her a Mini Mouse Onesie, a summer dress, underwear, but no diapers. I somehow could not bring myself to buy a bunch of those. I also buy things for her at Thrift Stores.
On another note, my therapist has a BUNCH of stuffed toys in her office. Like 20 of them! They are in the waiting room and in her office. I never did ask her if she counsels children, so I don't know if that is why, but I kind of like having them around when I am in her office. They comfort me somehow.