Hi
@Dana1010, sometimes, when I'm really fed up or exhausted from being deeply sad, or want to stop that endless crying, then I take lorazepam. And the crying stops, and the sadness fades quite a bit, so that it's easier for me to manage.
BUT, and I really want to emphasize this:
But from my personal experience, not one of the medicaments I tried for stopping sadness or desperate crying have taken away the state / condition of sadness. What I'm trying to say is, that such
medicaments only defer the sadness. - It won't go away permanently! For after I took lorazepam for three or four days in a row, I had to learn, that desperation and crying
always will return even more powerful than before! And this is a quite important fact! These medicaments don't heal desperation, sadness or whatever, they just kind of numb them out for a certain time.
So I too would like to encourage you to look for other ways to manage the memories that haunt you. There are different forms of trauma focused therapy that you can try to work with... Oh, and by the way, Valium's one of the strongest of the benzodiazepines. And also bears it's side effects, which amongst being highly addictive or giving you psychosis (and lots of other side effects more , is giving you severe nightmares and even have the potential to cause severe depression. I'll put a link for in, hope it helps.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diazepam