Undiagnosed Very Lonely Very Afraid After A Horrific Accident

[Queen Boudica]

So sorry this is happening. I think maybe getting a lawyer might be appropriate. You probably don't have PTSD yet, but you need help now. I would think you would be eligible for some compensation from the accident anyway, but what you need is therapy now.

I know your mind is now terrified of the ambulance ride but, trying to put your mind at rest, that this kind of accident is so rare and it will not happen again to you. Best way to overcome fear is to face it, which is what therapy will probably help you with. But I know PTSD does not work like that.

You really do need therapy now. If it means seeing a private therapist then do it. I think you should be in line for some compensation and anyway, paying for therapy now, if you are able to, will save you years of suffering and financial loss. But I know that might not be an option as private therapists cost, but that is why I am suggesting finding out what you would be eligible for in compensation for the accident. At least if the hospital sees you are threatening negligence about your treatment you may bet an appointment with a psychologist pretty quickly.

If you do have to get in the ambulance, explain to the crew what happened. I am sure they would be aware. I bet the ambulance crew who were in the accident are also suffering. They, I am sure will be very undertanding. But I suspect that is when the seriousness of the situation will become evident and maybe then they will get you evaluated for psychological help.

Not sure what else to suggest. I hope you get relief soon. I hope you have some family members or friends who can help you with this. Take care

 

[KP the nut]

((((Gemm)))), that is a hug if you accept them.

I live in Shropshire, England and just wanted to say Hi.

 

[gemm]

Hi everyone

Thanks for the many warm replies, they lifted my heart when I logged on again and saw them.

BTW all hugs are very welcome:)

So sorry I haven't been in touch for so long, lots has happened and I've been totally overwhelmed.

No progress made on getting counselling, the psychology department adamantly refuses to see an inpatient - to be honest, despite really needing their help, I feel so angry with them that I doubt I'd trust them now.

However, there has been "progress" of another sort, I'm actually home now, which though is was very traumatic, is excellent news. I was actually discharged earlier than planned following a really shocking incident in the hospital. Due to lack of beds in the psychiatric unit, a violent, unstable patient was temporarily admitted to the ortho ward I was in. This patient started shouting that she was going to burn the hospital down and burn all the patients alive!!! You can probably imagine the panic this caused throughout the ward, but the staff refused to move her. Sure enough, that same evening she attempted what she had threatened, and the fire alarms were blaring for hours, and the fire brigade stormed the ward. None of us were allowed to leave the ward despite the terror, noise and danger. This went on until late in the night, by which time I was unable to arrange transport home. However, the next day I did leave, and am now home.

The journey was as bad if not worse than I expected - I hadn't foreseen the physical pain and injury that would be caused.

Now as an outpatient I am eligible for counselling, but am now considered not "highly motivated" enough to receive treatment as I refused to attend as an outpatient and my GP requested home visits. So yet again, the psychology department have found a way of denying me help. At times I feel total despair.

This trauma which haunts me is a sneaky little devil, it sneaked home with me, and has an incredible talent for adaptability - I'm terrified at every noise outside the house, and keep smelling petrol all around me. The nightmares continue but have adapted to include my new environment, and the flashbacks are as powerful as ever - at least now I have my brother with me to help, and my beautiful greyhound Grace (yep, that's her in my avatar).

There is also a glimmer of hope in the distance, the lawyer who is dealing with the RTA, may now be able to arrange private counselling now that I've been refused NHS counselling both as an in-patient and as an out-patient. I'm desperately holding on to that possibility.

My experience as an NHS patient has certainly opened my eyes, we are but numbers to the so called caring professions, and I hope anyone reading this thread will realise they should never depend upon the NHS, I wouldn't wish the "treatment" I've received upon anyone.

Will keep you updated, and hopefully soon have some positive news.

Heartfelt thanks to everyone who has offered their support, friendship and (((((hugs))))
love gemm