Sexual Assault Was doing well exposed to big triggers at mo

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The constant feeling at the back of my throat like I'm gonna projectile vom but I'm just holding it there the hot sticky clammy shivering state. I feel the dirt under my skin like a Paris item. I literally peel my top layer of skin of. It looks disgusting and gets easily infected. Stops me going out in public. I have a small trusted group of friends who Iook past this in as diction to the witch hair. Just the ganja crew. Other than group therapy I don't see anyone else at the mo. I found porn yesterday. There was a sound and understandable explanation as to why it was in the flattic and it was only normal adult porn mags it's just sexual acts on video or picture leave the divide between sex and brutality a bit more blurred in my brain but I don't know if that's because I avoided sex before I met my hubby. Maybe this general confusion is just because it's Bracken's birthday today( please read my recent thread in treatment and therapy if you have the time and are not finding this subject trigger) l. Maybe I'm over thinking it but why do some people get the urge to have sex with people they don't love when it's such an explicit act or maybe why do you get the urge to do that to someone you love?

 

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Parasite not Paris item