Childhood Was I molested?

[Txara]

So when i was like 5 or 6 , i knew this girl who was about 7. Me and my twin sister went over to have a sleepover at her house. Maybe about a couple hours being there the girl tells me to take my clothes off and stuff and she did as well. I had no idea what was going on, i'm not even sure why i did it. She touched me in inappropriate areas. I think my sister just watched it and stuff. I cant remember but i think my mom and the girls mom knew but they still let us have sleepovers and playdates. Every time she came over she would want to do these things. I didn't say no cause i just thought it was normal. Around that time i discovered porn and i started to watch it. We went to the same daycare and stuff and when we would go somewhere like the park she would ask me to do it. I had gotten so used to it and expected it every time i saw her. It went on until i was like 8 and she was about 10. After that I started looking at more porn and stuff. I became a very sexual person after that. I just thought it was normal. I'm 13 now and its been messing with my head, i hate being touched anywhere.

 

[Friday]

It can be normal... most kids experiment sexually with each other to some degree.

It can also be kinda half & half... where it’s fairly normal experimentation for one of the kids, but the other kid is acting out their own sexual abuse with their peers.

It can also be straight up child on child sexual abuse / sexual assault; nearly always one kid acting out their abuse on another. The range is huge as to how violent that becomes; from not at all to brutal rape and torture.

Where on the spectrum your experience falls? No idea. It could fall completely in the normal range or it could be straight up child on child sexual abuse, or anywhere in between. My suggestion would be if it’s something that’s bothering you today, that working with a therapist could probably be beneficial for you.

Also this >>> Sexual Assault - Are you wondering if you were raped? read this first.

 

[Kubash16]

Are you able to see if your parents will let you see a counselor? Are you still in contact with this girl? I would be willing to bet she was being molested and was acting it out if it was happening often. I think every kid has a curious phase but I don’t know what that level ends at because I didn’t experience normal. Obviously I wasn’t there so I can’t say anything for certain, but from what it sounds like given her age I doubt it was with any malicious intent.

Have you talked to your parents about this? Are they able to contact the police and report it so that she can get protected from whoever may be doing it to her.

 

[Txara]

Are you able to see if your parents will let you see a counselor? Are you still in contact with this girl? I would be willing to bet she was being molested and was acting it out if it was happening often. I think every kid has a curious phase but I don’t know what that level ends at because I didn’t experience normal. Obviously I wasn’t there so I can’t say anything for certain, but from what it sounds like given her age I doubt it was with any malicious intent.

Have you talked to your parents about this? Are they able to contact the police and report it so that she can get protected from whoever may be doing it to her.

No im not in contact with her. I cant remember but i think our moms knew about it but didnt speak about it, not sure but even after that we still had playdates and sleepovers.

 

[Kubash16]

Have you had a recent conversation with your mom about it? I would start there.

 

[littleoc]

At thirteen, it's still difficult to know what others around you are like. I only say that because you described yourself as an overly sexual person, but depending on what you mean by that, it may not be because of what happened to you when you were younger. You might be unfamiliar with your sexuality for now, which is okay. And past experiences can make that trickier, but you have plenty of time to get it worked out.

It sounds like this is really bothering you, though. We can't tell you if you were molested or not in this scenario, because it really depends on so many factors that are difficult to tease out of this situation.

I started therapy at age 13. It wasn't with the best therapist, but I learned how to get other therapists eventually. You're already off to an amazing start just by reaching out on these forums like you are. That's really a wonderful sign! It shows your courage and your ability to be proactive and find what you need. So, if you want to try therapy, I would argue that you're ready for it. It may help you work through this enough to move on and not have it bother you so much.

How often is it bothering you, by the way?

Very glad you're here :hug: