littledieselbaby
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I watched both my parents die from Cancer. My mom got sick in 2006 and I moved home to care for her. I went to give her her meds and found her lifeless. called for an ambulance, but they could not save her. Watched them bring her out in a bag. In 2008 my dad got diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. I watched a man I loved more than anything waste away to nothing.
He was 6'2 260. He was a skeleton by the end. I watched him cough up blood. I was told by the doctors that it was "normal" nothing about any of it was "normal" to me. He passed away 4 months later. I though I was fine..until the nightmares, the cold sweets. I would see him and when I got closer he would be gone. this is all new to me. I use to think I was a very strong women. Lately, if you walk up behind me and say "boo" I'd probably pee my paints.
I just want the dreams to stop. the hallucinations to stop. I'm on meds but they don't work that well.
He was 6'2 260. He was a skeleton by the end. I watched him cough up blood. I was told by the doctors that it was "normal" nothing about any of it was "normal" to me. He passed away 4 months later. I though I was fine..until the nightmares, the cold sweets. I would see him and when I got closer he would be gone. this is all new to me. I use to think I was a very strong women. Lately, if you walk up behind me and say "boo" I'd probably pee my paints.
I just want the dreams to stop. the hallucinations to stop. I'm on meds but they don't work that well.
