Weaning Off Anti-depressants And Anti Anxiety Medications. How To Deal With Arising Feelings?

[devildoc130]

It seems like you are doing better..I notice that if I'm super busy, I'm able to make it through the day. I've just been struggling with anger issues and everything has been making me frustrated. It can be the smallest thing and I will flip out. Esspecially dealing with work. I have a lot on my plate. It's been really really hard.

 

[ms spock]

I am grateful that I saw my psychiatrist and she alerted me that I was in a trauma state of frozenness and paralysis. This gave me insight that was helpful.

I was feeling so poorly and it was hard going but going to therapy was good as it got me in contact with a few issues. I did do a few good things last week with exercise and activity. That this state of hopelessness and helplessness is a trauma state through which I can work, despite it feeling impossible.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling at times a glimmer of hope and at times overwhelmed.

 

[devildoc130]

I understand how you feel. Today I woke up feeling very tired, no brain zaps yet, but very bad body aches, slight fever but or some reason I feel like I can take on the world. That I have this inner strength to fight through anything. It's not like... I'm better. Long from that, but I don't feel as weighed down. Still a lot of anger and resentment. Less physical symptoms today. And more emotional. But I am smiling. How's everything today Ms Spock?

 

[just me here]

Hey everyone.

I am checking back in to let you know I will probably stop posting here now but I am available for PM's if you want to tap me for my experiences with this withdrawal stuff. I have posted most of this already but I want to leave everyone with my best takeaways from all of it:

I have walked away from several drugs on my own, tobacco and marijuana probably being my toughest two. Until now. Looking back, getting free of an anti-anxiety drug made all the other withdrawals seem like a walk in the park. What you guys are doing is very respectable and I wish you all a good outcome with the good feeling of having done a hard thing and being a better person for it. I have an empathy toward anyone that has kicked a pharmaceutical drug of any kind now, I took a small bite of that sandwich and it was very hard to chew and swallow.

Keep going is the best advice I can give. What else will work?

I wish I had rediscovered my hot tub sooner, it is a wonderful way to relax and it helps with the aches and pains.

Drinking lots of water was also good advice and I wonder how much worse it could have been if I wasn't constantly refilling my jug and emptying my bladder.

And all of this was just a bit easier when I reminded myself that "this too shall pass".

Thanks for this thread and all the help that came my way because of it, and I will keep sending good thoughts your way.

We can all do this.......left foot, right foot, left foot, right foot........thats the only way to get there!

Good thoughts......get well soon!

 

[ms spock]

I am struggling with the trauma state of hopelessness and helplessness that was identified by my psychiatrist yesterday but I feel so grateful to know what it is and to have a professional that can identify what is is - this state has tripped me up for a couple of decades. I have a chance to deal with this now.

I am grateful that I am doing things, made my bed this morning, hung out some washing, had an anxiety attack but went to yoga anyway.

I came home and did 15 minutes of cleaning. That is huge for me and I am so grateful.

 

[ms spock]

This giving up of the medications certainly lifts the lid on the issues.

So there is so much that I don't remember that makes up the complex trauma of my PTSD. Yet there were times when my father threatened to kill us, thrashed us and tried to kill us. There were times that my father was sexually assaulting me whilst my mother stood outside my bedroom door. There was being out in a car with my drunken grandfather. There was the emotional abuse, the shaming, terrorising, the threatening, the verbal abuse and so forth.

I don't know what brought on the trauma state of paralysis and frozenness in my life. Is this a cumulative thing? It is a feeling partly of dissociation, partly of feeling like I can never escape and can never make a difference. My psychiatrist said I probably felt like I could never escape my parents. It is a feeling of frozenness. And it has been a problem for me most of my life.

I did more this morning but didn't do so well this afternoon. But still better than last week.

I went to Tai Chi. I was more present there tonight.

Making a meal now. Haven't been able to eat much from a couple pieces of fruit.

 

[mamachick]

I think we would all love to be off all medications. I know I would. I went off anti depressant in December, little struggle but managed. As more crap happened, I started feeling angry and hopeless again. Two wks ago, I had suicidal ideation. I think that is the big red flag, having SI is nothing to fool with. I went back on and am coming around. SI is dangerous. It may just not be the right time and thats ok.

Please tell your T how you are honestly feeling. Please let us know how your appointment goes. Will be thinking of you.

 

[ms spock]

I am learning about the complex trauma from my childhood and it is confronting and challenging but I have the opportunity to heal and grow and even though it is very slow there are small weekly improvements.

The suicidal ideation has ceased and it helped to deal with the childhood survival stuff that was under this.

 

[mamachick]

I am glad the SI has ceased. I know what that feels like and that is horrible.
Long ago, before I knew I had ptsd (but supposedly I did), I was on pain meds, anti depressants. I wanted off and found alternative therapy for pain. Was scared to go off anti depressants. Life was very good at time though. I had no trouble getting off except for the little tingling feelings in head for about a week. Was off of them for many years until I filed for divorce. Then the anxiety and deppression started creeping in and has escalated to a point that I have been on for 10 yrs now. It was the right time for me then. It is not now.

Please just pay attention and report symtoms to Dr or T. I tend to want to minimize symptoms. I have to be very direct with Dr when this happens. My life circumstances just make it the wrong time for me.

Good luch Ms Spock-it sounds like you can do it.

 

[Abstract]

The suicidal ideation has ceased and it helped to deal with the childhood survival stuff that was under this.

Woohoo Ms Spock Good for you. And it seems it has given you the opportunity to access and receive another layer of healing. Keep fighting...

 

[ms spock]

Feel a little bit better today. The meditation three plus times per day is helping.