I am so sorry that you were suffering and not receiving a timely response. Please know that I care about you. Even if it’s only a brief response to try to help you.
It’s one of the harder things that I have had to deal with on this healing process so I know how difficult it is for you. The judgement and people not understanding. I even have a signed letter saying that I shouldn’t wear one due to medical reasons, but it’s almost scarier to risk the backlash of other people.
I have a lot in common with you. I’m from the US but I ran away to London after having been strangled. One night at a pub I was drugged and kidnapped. I played dead when I came to in a car and was able to flee. I ran and ran and fell because I was drugged. A nice woman wanted to get me a policeman but I begged her to help me get a cab. I had no idea where I was. These two traumas so close to one another unleashed my dive into alcohol. I’m still anxious out in the world. I didnt have any money or my passport. No one would know I was missing. I had told my family that I was going to England and never coming back.
I wear surgical masks because they are the easiest to breathe in. Maybe you can find some at a drug store. Look for the ear loop ones, you won’t feel so trapped and you can pull it down as often as you can. They don’t have any elastic that freak me right out. The full face shields are intended to keep Covid out of your eyes, not to replace a mask. Do you think a positive affirmation would help? Like”I am saving lives by protecting people from my droplets” picture yourself in the sunshine wearing your mask and picture yourself smiling. When I developed my lung disease I have to wear masks everywhere and I’ve tried all of the. For me the surgical ones are the least claustrophobic.
yep -- throw me in there too.
I have several different kind of masks and use them based on how I can tolerate them at the time. They all fit differently -- a couple are thick, a couple are more paperish and then one is a bandanna. I think having control of which type I will wear for which situation helps with the panic because it means I'm the one in charge of what's over my face. Kind of like an exposure therapy. Not sure if it is working but hopeful......
As for the face shield--Sister and I were just talking about this today. I think that you are supposed to wear a mask underneath it - the shield just gives an extra level of protection. Haven't had time to research it yet --- but might be worth looking into if you are using one in the near future
And this may well be outta line, but @lostforgottensoul , how are you coping with face masks? You and I had a conversation once about how hard it was just wearing a necklace if I remember right?
@coxysmelons93, you're not alone in this face mask is triggering thing. Suffocating me was one of my traumas. Drowning. Other ways of not being able to breath as well as what @Sideways said; necklaces and anything around my neck or wrists due to my trauma (cause I was chained up). Having a mask over my face and it being hard to breath and being hot is all triggering. I think many can relate to that for various reasons.
Like I said above, I try to find an out of the place area without people to take it off so I can breath for a few mins. I have no idea where to find a face shield or how to make one so a face mask it has to be. It feels like swimming under water. Hold your breath, run and do something, find a spot no one is at and take it off and breath and rise and repeat. I probably have to do that 15 times in a 15 min to 30 min trip. Its so much like swimming under water for me. Or like holding my breath. Though I'm not holding my breath, it feels like I am. My service dog is alerting like crazy due to the panic its causing. And I am treating the stores like a race. How fast can I run in and out?
Anyway, no real tips or anything. Just that I can relate.
Just as I expected my own feeling and trauma are of no importance at all and I may as well just end it all because clearly I'm a bad person for going through what I did and having a reaction to it.
Don't worry, I'm used to nothing I feel or experience ever meaning anything to anyone, just like my lie doesn't.
As for the face shield-