A very good friend of mine committed suicide on Wednesday. He remarried a couple of years ago after his first marriage broke down. I was shocked even though I knew he suffered from depression, the same as his wife whom he met whilst in hospital. They struggled with their mental health and supported each other. Though at times it was difficult as they had so many ups and downs. He had two young boys from his first marriage, who will really miss their daddy.
His wife sent me an email an hour or two ago asking me to ring her. I am very concerned for her well being and can't help her as she lives in Holland. I was also upset on the phone and made her promise to contact someone is she felt that she couldn't cope. Promised to call her every couple of days to see how she is. Life really sucks, he left a note on the front door which she found, telling her not to come in as something bad had happened. The police were called and broke down the door and found M on the couch.
Today I feel terribly depressed, my son got mad at me again for no good reason, after the kids spilled oil over the verandah. I was so mad at at him so refused to go out to dinner with them, I was just too upset.
Why can't we turn back the clock! I would dearly like to bring dead friends and family back to life. I am so sad and feel like my life sucks! Why can't I be someone else for a while.
