Whitneys story
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Oh I love your message and I hope it is ok to use around the world!
More hugs for ((((((((((deedlerock)))))))))). I think a ((((((((((group hug)))))))))) is in order if no one minds. :happy:
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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
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Oh I love your message and I hope it is ok to use around the world!
More hugs for ((((((((((deedlerock)))))))))). I think a ((((((((((group hug)))))))))) is in order if no one minds. :happy:
I've been absent for a while. Between the cancer pain, the start of the new treatments, getting use to the morphine has had the best of me. I've finally conceeded to have home care help during chemo week to do my housework. It stressed me as I never had this before, but the lady was really nice and patient with me. She's a pretty sympathetic woman and I have to admit that it is good to find the appartement like before all this hassel. At least it leaves me the strength to do some of the stuff that I couldn't do because of the fatigue and lack of energy.
Thank you so much to all those who have kept in touch with me during this period, hope to have more time to spend on here and keep in contact with you all. :hug:s to all who need them
Thank you so much to all those who have kept in touch with me during this period, hope to have more time to spend on here and keep in contact with you all. :hug:s to all who need them
Whitneys story
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Oh Froggie, It is soooo good to see you! Congrats on getting help! I know how difficult it can be.
I am so glad the best one is there to help you! Please get your rest too! We have something special to share next month.
So sorry they are wearing you down. I am here holding your hand. Hugs to you and your family! Whitney
I am so glad the best one is there to help you! Please get your rest too! We have something special to share next month.
So sorry they are wearing you down. I am here holding your hand. Hugs to you and your family! Whitney
ms spock
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I am feeling a little bit flat. I am feeling better today but I am still bleeding. So I don't know if I have a UTI or what. So I feel uncertain.
ms spock
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Hi Froggie, I wish you warmth welcome back to the forum. :hug:
You deserve good people and you deserve the best treatment. I am glad to read that you got good treatment from hospital and now you are on road of healing. Isn't this great news? Of course, it is...
janner1983
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Well I guess I ended up hear as I simply have run out of options I seem to be the option people go to when you have a problem but the issue then comes to a head when your the one that is struggling as everyone seems to clear and your left with dust .
Im a loving wife of 12 year's to the most simply amazing man he is in the army and i have been with him since I was 17 and he simply is my world he has dont 4 tours of duty in total and this last one just seems to have pushed the self destruct button and I really am powerless to what to do I feel very worried he did a test on line which the army offer them when they come back from tour and it came back positive it advises them to seek help which my husband hasn't dont it has been a roller-coaster ever since.
He seems to have changed so dramatically it isn't my husband and every so often ill get a glimmer that confirms he is still in there and the man I love is struggling.It started so simple as I would ask him to do the most simply things like close a window or open the curtains to simply asking him if he wanted some ice cream and he would swear yell loose total control it wouldn't matter where we are too him we could be out eating or simply doing a little shopping he just seem's so overwhelmed bye everything and everyone .
He didn't sleep for the first few weeks of being home but we put that down to he worked nights for 6 months but since then all he wants to do is sleep he seems distant like he cant get excited over anything and everything seems to be rushed so he can get back to being on his own.He is the type of man who loves to be close to me he loves sex and even his libido has gone I feel so lost from someone I felt so close too and I dont want to leave but I feel like im drowning through trying to help him.
I started of being gentle and patient feeling like i was walking on egg shells then after a while i got tired of always feeling like i had dont something wrong or that he could just pop at any moment so I kicked back and decided that I wouldn't be spoken to or be treated in a way.
He improved for a few weeks well improved basically stopped yelling and getting angry but instead distanced himself even more I no he loves me and he says it hundreds of time's through out the day but You no when you can see someone slowly getting worse and you no you just want to make it all better but you cant it is enough to make you sick!!
With military redundancy looming he decided to apply for it and for a while my husband seem to appear he was happy and positive terrified that he would be civi but taking it head on then it changed again to him being impatient tired all the time binge eating and know he is spending money randomly we dont have and we are not talking the odd £100 he spent £700 on a suit I just need someone i can talk too when days get bad i want to cry i need someone i can say owe my god and them not think he is a bad person because is just the most kind gently amazing man.
I can understand how this can push a marriage to the edge as I feel somedays im on the edge and hanging on with my nails I can only imagine what is it like in my husband head I need to be able to voice it and hope someone can teach me from his point of view how he feels .Im sorry if this seems alot and do hope it dont put people of anyways ill wrap up for know
xxx army wife xxx
Im a loving wife of 12 year's to the most simply amazing man he is in the army and i have been with him since I was 17 and he simply is my world he has dont 4 tours of duty in total and this last one just seems to have pushed the self destruct button and I really am powerless to what to do I feel very worried he did a test on line which the army offer them when they come back from tour and it came back positive it advises them to seek help which my husband hasn't dont it has been a roller-coaster ever since.
He seems to have changed so dramatically it isn't my husband and every so often ill get a glimmer that confirms he is still in there and the man I love is struggling.It started so simple as I would ask him to do the most simply things like close a window or open the curtains to simply asking him if he wanted some ice cream and he would swear yell loose total control it wouldn't matter where we are too him we could be out eating or simply doing a little shopping he just seem's so overwhelmed bye everything and everyone .
He didn't sleep for the first few weeks of being home but we put that down to he worked nights for 6 months but since then all he wants to do is sleep he seems distant like he cant get excited over anything and everything seems to be rushed so he can get back to being on his own.He is the type of man who loves to be close to me he loves sex and even his libido has gone I feel so lost from someone I felt so close too and I dont want to leave but I feel like im drowning through trying to help him.
I started of being gentle and patient feeling like i was walking on egg shells then after a while i got tired of always feeling like i had dont something wrong or that he could just pop at any moment so I kicked back and decided that I wouldn't be spoken to or be treated in a way.
He improved for a few weeks well improved basically stopped yelling and getting angry but instead distanced himself even more I no he loves me and he says it hundreds of time's through out the day but You no when you can see someone slowly getting worse and you no you just want to make it all better but you cant it is enough to make you sick!!
With military redundancy looming he decided to apply for it and for a while my husband seem to appear he was happy and positive terrified that he would be civi but taking it head on then it changed again to him being impatient tired all the time binge eating and know he is spending money randomly we dont have and we are not talking the odd £100 he spent £700 on a suit I just need someone i can talk too when days get bad i want to cry i need someone i can say owe my god and them not think he is a bad person because is just the most kind gently amazing man.
I can understand how this can push a marriage to the edge as I feel somedays im on the edge and hanging on with my nails I can only imagine what is it like in my husband head I need to be able to voice it and hope someone can teach me from his point of view how he feels .Im sorry if this seems alot and do hope it dont put people of anyways ill wrap up for know
xxx army wife xxx
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I have hope that today will be better.
CraftyCath
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Me too monster. I'm taking 3 Gabapentin a day and feel very strange. Drowsy, lethargic, disconnected, uncoordinated and blurred vision. I hope you get your 2nd opinion soon. :hug:
I need sleep.:sleep:
DharmaGirl
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I'm painful, really painful, but not as depressed as last night. I hope this ordeal will be over soon, because I can't live like this.
CC-When I'm on Gabapenin I feel as if I'm in a movie. I need to go get some though, I can't stand this pain.
CC-When I'm on Gabapenin I feel as if I'm in a movie. I need to go get some though, I can't stand this pain.
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