What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[CourageofSnow]

I am now feeling frustrated. I have a developed a stammer, and am shaking.

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm agitated but calming down. My folks were over helping on some home repairs and I get so darn tense about dad throwing one of his tantrums. He almost behaved himself, snapped at mum a couple times but not me. He's been lectured enough to know he gets in trouble for bullying me now.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm feeling more calm today than I have all week. I'm also very tired today. I'm so grateful for a day with a little less hypervigilance.

 

[Err0r]

I feel really drained today. Like all of the life has been sucked out of me. I have been sleeping a little bit better, even though the nightmares still haunt me on nightly basis. I don't know if I'm awake or sleeping right now...

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling terribly anxious today.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Thinking of you Froggie.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I don't know how I feel today. I feel like I have jumpy legs and need to walk, but that's not an emotion. Oh well. I don't know how I feel.

 

[Philippa]

Much better after a good sleep. Still a bit unsure and sapped from all the stress about fathers day. Much better than yesterday though. Looking forward to my day off and being productive doing what I want to do.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Yesterday was nice to have a break from hypervigilance being so high. Today started out good. Until I was asked to look at some pictures and saw a current picture of someone who abused me when I was a little kid for years. I hadn't seen him in more than 20 years. So tonight I feel hypervigilant anxious and depressed. Quite a combination. All of it is making me feel hopeless.

 

[OutofTouch]

I felt morning anxiety. I felt depressed. I felt dissociated. I felt I should revisit the notion of full blown dissociation into a totally different lifestyle, although that could prove to be an imprudent, desperate thought to solve my condition and which no doubt would be fully supported by the mania of energy I can sometimes achieve when the dogs of anxiety/depression leave me alone for 6 months or more.

I feel that a leap of faith is required. But I feel than any leap done may well be premature without a full evaluation of the outcome and what state of condition my condition is in at the time. I just felt a little happy from the mindfulness that typing this out has achieved.
Albeit short-lived and I of course spin the negative truth that it is a sadly, unachievable permanent status of which I kind of used to maintain.

I feel I have blurbed enough and wish it could all go away with a snap of my fingers.

 

[CourageofSnow]

I feel like I am falling apart. I have developed a stammer which is so bad I shake and sit. This happened after I remembered a traumatic event. Not able to go to work today as I know talking would have been difficult.

I feel raw as the flood of memories and feelings rise to the surface. I wish I could push them all back down but I know that it wouldn't help.

 

[Err0r]

(((CourageofSnow))) I'm sorry you're not doing well.