What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[DMerish]

Tired and still really pissed about $/car situation with son yelling/cussing at me. I feel inept with the tools I have to stand up for myself and elicit respect from others. I feel unappreciated and unworthy of being loved. I've been done with the abuse this kid's father imposed on me for quite some time, but the waterfall effect of it that was passed on to my kids towards me still remains. I'm tired of it. I feel that I'm in a quandary. I feel like a little girl whose supposed to be "good" accepting other people's poor behavior in order to have the semblance of a relationship with them in order to feel their "love" (which isn't love at all!).

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm feeling better despite my cold. I slept well last night with the help of medicine, though I woke up early. I think getting a decent night sleep helps the rest of the emotional turmoil that may be festering.

 

[Madhather]

Today I feel...
depressed
angry
overwhelmed.

 

[amethist]

I am feeling fed up with the pain in my ankle.

Having an x-ray on it on Thursday, to see if it Arthritis or something else causing the pain.

 

[franciemarnie]

Thank you @Ms Spock for your kind and true words. Why is it we become garbage bins when we are kind and protective? I have to research that. But you said what I needed to hear. Take care of myself. If I am healing, the rest will fall into place. I will be able to "see" with perspective. Hugs to you if okay.

Slept last night so feel rested. My head is still in the skipping groove of the album and I have to do something to lift the needle. Going to go see Inside Lewyn Davis (sp). Movies help me.

Feel sad and angry.

@DMerish - this is what Ive done with my brother for years. In order to have the semblance of a relationship - I put up with bad behavior. I'm at the crossroads. Now I choose no relationship and it is hard.

 

[ms spock]

Why is it we become garbage bins when we are kind and protective? I have to research that. But you said what I needed to hear. Take care of myself. If I am healing, the rest will fall into place. I will be able to "see" with perspective.

Thanks for the hugs.

@[URL="https://www.myptsd.com/members/franciemarnie.18943/"]franciemarnie[/URL]My understanding is that one of the dynamics of an abusive family is that one of the children becomes the garbage bin/scapegoat.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling terribly anxious stressed by the guy doing the mowing outside of my window. Did some meditation and after a huge emotional reaction of panic and stress I calmed down.

So I felt completely overwhelmed and then I was relieved to calm down.

 

[ms spock]

Hovering over feeling so overwhelmed.

 

[franciemarnie]

Dear @Ms Spock - thank you some more. When I am in an obsessive thought pattern, I don't seem to have access to some parts of my brain. I forgot about the scapegoat role. My brother was the revered achiever bringing prestige to the family. I started out that way and then was "demoted". Sigh.

So glad you were able to calm down though I know the hovering feeling too. Loud noises trigger me. I used to only wear hearing aids at work, nowhere else, to avoid auditory assault.

 

[franciemarnie]

Feeling calmer though still have underlayment of anger and sadness.

Body strangely free of pain.

In meditation, I sensed the message that when I stay in the record's skipping groove of replaying some past or future scene, it stops all healing in its tracks.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

I feel pretty badly today, so I'm going to make sure I get up and going tomorrow so I don't get stuck in another down, bad day.

 

[Lionheart]

I feel very weak and tired but also thankful that I am continuing to recover from the flu.

I am angry at my mother for her shaming, blaming, hurtful and critical ways but I will get over it....it is kinda like a sore that won't heal because she is always ripping it open with her remarks and actions.

I need a good night's sleep, I think.