What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[EverOnly358]

Happy. :joyful: A little tired. :unsure: Pretty okay in general. :laugh:

 

[franciemarnie]

Pretty darn good. @Ms Spock 's comments pulled me back into reality.

Quiet inside. No pain. I will enjoy it while it lasts.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling massive anxiety. Feeling really bad. Struggling. Feeling SI.

 

[ms spock]

When I am in an obsessive thought pattern, I don't seem to have access to some parts of my brain. I forgot about the scapegoat role.

You are not alone franciemarnie. I hope to write stuff out and have it to remind me but I haven't got there yet.

 

[franciemarnie]

Hugs if okay @Ms Spock, I wish I could send you electronically the relative peace I have at the moment. I don't know what soothes you besides SI. It gave me peace once to dream of it, imagine it in detail. I know something of the pain that leads you there.

Tonight I watched a good movie on TV. No triggers. A sweet dog was in it. I wish there was something that could overpower the SI. A phrase. An image. A story. A dream,

 

[franciemarnie]

I remembered @Ms Spock - the rolls of siblings in an alcoholic family: over achiever, caretaker, scapegoat and eff up. I read Codependent No More once. It was eye opening and infuriating.

She also wrote a meditation book. My favorite phrase was "Stand in your truth." I so often have slipped away, and when I do...trouble. Sanity gone with reality,

 

[ms spock]

@Ms Spock 's comments pulled me back into reality.

Quiet inside. No pain. I will enjoy it while it lasts.

Ultimately I want to be able to contain myself and remind myself. But until then if I can check in and reality check and get reminded of things that is a good way to go. Likewise helping others to come back to understanding and awareness is good too. We all benefit in a positive way building up new neural pathways in our brains.

 

[ms spock]

I remembered the rolls of siblings in an alcoholic family: over achiever, caretaker, scapegoat and eff up. I read Codependent No More once. It was eye opening and infuriating.

It is good to remind ourselves of these roles and to reframe our current thinking to inco-orporate this awareness.

My favorite phrase was "Stand in your truth." I so often have slipped away, and when I do...trouble.

The thing is you have been there you can go back and that is a strength that you have now. So good on you. You can practice and practice with mindfulness until it becomes a stronger part of you.

 

[Miss_Understood]

I feel as if I'm on a different plane of existance.

 

[macca]

numb, distant

Don't want to feel anything right now.

 

[intothelight]

Feeling nervous about venturing out today and am not sure what the day will bring. Trying to reel in the fear and just let each moment unfold as it will. The only thing I have control over are my own actions, perceptions and responses. Sometimes I wonder if the distrust of myself is a lot of where this fear originates?

 

[ill]

I'm feeling relieved that my pipe finally unfroze, hopeful that there was no bursting given that my neighbours downstairs are awake and there's been no shrieking or knocks on the door, uncomfortably hot and cranky because the heat is so high (to unfreeze the pipe), annoyed and frustrated that there are things I have to do today when all I want to do is rest, exhausted because it's been stressful, a little proud because somehow I've been managing it, and restless because I need to take a walk and have a nice bath and just recover already.

@intothelight - I think distrust of myself is responsible for a whole lot of my fear and anxiety and other symptoms.