What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Sometimes I wonder if the distrust of myself is a lot of where this fear originates?

If you trusted yourself what would that look like? How would that change the make up of your day? How would you live your day?

I think that is a profound insight.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling a lot of anxiety. I also have to learn how to relate to people without coming through my pain and anxiety and my childhood and the victim mentality that I am holding on to.

 

[ms spock]

I feel SI on and off.

 

[franciemarnie]

Breathing back to normal and lost powerless vulnerable child feeling after work out. My brother "only" came to mind nine times in an hour. But I successfully ushered him out as soon as aware. I'd like to have a door that I lock. Think I will build a mental one.

I am grateful to feel so physically healthy after exercise. It is a kind of well being.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling okay now. I was feeling a great deal of anxiety before. I went to see the GP and got the referrals for my annual check up for breast cancer and ovarian cancer. So I am to have a mammogram, bilateral breast ultrasound and pelvic ultra sound.

I had a blood test for the problem at the bottom of my esophagus. It has been a problem for awhile now so time to get it checked out.

All my other blood work came out fine. I have two more tests to come back. I was impressed as I only had the blood test yesterday.

 

[Angelwings]

I feel well rested and ready to sleep again. I feel cared for because a friend did me a favor today. I feel happy to have my son. And now, time to piss off the family by changing my son's school to a waldorf school.

 

[ms spock]

Breathing back to normal and lost powerless vulnerable child feeling after work out. My brother "only" came to mind nine times in an hour. But I successfully ushered him out as soon as aware.

That is impressive self talk and disputing thought work!

 

[WSQ]

Feeling gross and want to throw up today.

 

[ms spock]

I feel a bit ridiculous the letter I have to write to the Dept of Housing is so easy as to be ridiculous and I have been stressing about this since Monday. I am going to have to be a little bit more proactive.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling proud and brave! I keep dealing with things even though it feels so hard for me.

 

[ms spock]

I feel a little bit silly and a little bit pathetic.

Doing things - just about anything - even ordinary things is REALLY HARD for me!

*flashes up red warning card hoping for a sensible decision from myself to get that CBT framework to reenter my brain*.

 

[ms spock]

My goodness me oh my - I feel overwhelmed by the work I have to do to heal.

*puts hand on top of her forehead with fingers facing outwards in classic heroine pose from 18th Century novels or melodramatic movies*

Oh the humanity! Oh how much work I have to do! Oh dear me I have been getting it wrong! Oh Egads!

Oh the replacement thinking I will have to do!

I know me (to some small extent) and I am one stubborn lass when it comes to change. I just refuse as the fear is so big. I am going to have to do some serious self soothing with myself otherwise I will get stuck in absolute fear and terror.

Thank goodness that my sense of humour is returning and that it is a stellar cast type of sense of humour.

Can I do it? Of course I can! But Will I Do It? That remains to be seen if I can get myself out of the emotional quicksand that I live in.