What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Anrish]

Tiny, in panic, weak, like a coward....like a little child again....it's really stormy outside and I freak out when I hear the wind howling around the house. And they forecasted thunderstorms and I'm so afraid of them. :cry::cry::cry::bag:

 

[Spiderallis]

Today I'm feeling quite ill and I know it's emotions coming out the wrong way. Dad bullied me into doing a favor. By time I could get mom to help negotiate, it was too late to change plans. The solution is that I will not participate, and dad will not come to my home without mom. They only need access to the garage. I'll be hiding in the house and the threat of condescending nonsense and a grown man throwing a tantrum is still making me sick.

 

[PTSDbegone]

I am feeling anxious? I think that's what it is. Kind of edgy, scared, lonely... not sure why. It's hard to concentrate at work when feeling this way. Usually it's not an issue here.

 

[Anrish]

Exhausted, restless...and anxious. They are planning some new work group at my work place and it's not sure who will be sent there...I'm afraid it might be me.

 

[Anrish]

Absolutely amused by my best friend...who is almost puking while proofreading some part of my thesis. She is so stressed and whispers like a maniac while reading. It's soooo funny...to see her getting more and more irritated. :hilarious:

 

[WildMermaid]

I feel like an idiot. I'm angry at myself today and lately. At Disneyland i tried carrying my crutches on my chair to spare my family having to freaking carry them and out of bull headed pride and/or determination, and they blocked visibility and i slammed a post hard. Hard enough to hurt myself and to screw up the position of my brake on one side. We've tried to fix it, but it's still off. today went to eye Dr. all went fine, but chair spun out and in mid transfer my legs were up and and i'm terribly afraid he could see down my skirt. i'm mortified but neither of us said a word, i feel so much shame. Then after appointment we picked up Taco Bell for lunch and I was wobbling around on my crutches carrying my plate and dropped the little bag of chips. Picked that up swept, picked up my plate again and dropped the veggie taco that was the other half of my meal. My family looked at me like I was a looney and made me sit down so I've been hiding out in the bedroom crying ever since. Feel like i'm breaking stuff right and left, head hurts, and so unfocused. Just having a dumbass day. Tomorrow will be better.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling very good in spite of some adversity today. I did what I could and I accomplished many things facing down my anxiety and nervousness, I ended up treating myself to take out and I loved it.

I feel for everyone who is struggling today.

 

[Anrish]

@WildMermaid : Sorry to hear that you had such a bad time. I hope that the crying eased your emotions a bit. I send you some encouraging hugs if you accept them? :hug:

I feel calm and relieved. It's the first day in two weeks I'm not under so much pressure that I tremble all time. I still did this morning but it got less during the day.

 

[WildMermaid]

@Anrish i'm a fan of hugs and and think they really do help in even the bleak hours. :hug:

 

[WildMermaid]

I told my husband about the out of control wheelchair and possible panty flash at the eye doc. and about another shaming incident. Not sure why I had not shared with him about those before, but glad I told him. He said these things happen to everyone, he was supportive, shared an old embarrassment of his own (that always makes me giggle) then he was crass lol as is his nature. ;) Still sick, but no fever for hours :D and I'm hopeful that soon I won't sound like a frog. ribbet.

 

[Anrish]

@WildMermaid : Glad to hear that you're doing better and it's great to have such a nice husband. :)

I'm feeling a bit worried about my bachelor thesis. I need to write between 40 - 50 pages. :eek::confused: ...I'm an absolute minimalist and have to watch out that I will get enough pages filled. ...I'm currently working on page 13, so almost a third of the minimum fulfilled so far. :grumpy:

 

[Anrish]

Thoughtful. I will go to my first appointment to my new therapist. I will have to fit in their ambulance's study...we'll see. And I started to collect everything concerning my clinical records in my flat. I'm shocked that it is soooo much...and I never knew that doctors already said that I suffer from dissociative disorders 12 years (!) ago. My mother never showed me the reports...and they also had suspicion of me having multiple sclerosis because of my vision disorders. Nice to know. :wideeyed::eek: ...but they also already wrote about adaptive disorders in my case...

And I feel like a little badass. I was forced to become my cousin's godmother ten years ago. ...I left the church some years ago and I searched in the internet and found that the godmothership expires with me leaving the church! I don't like that stupid brat ....and I don't feel connected to him, so I'm thinking about ending that farce...I only spend lots of money because my aunts expects me to (I earn more than she does and so she told me that she wouldn't send me presents anymore...WTF!?)...I just have to find a way to get the message across to my family. That would also spare me the threat of going to his confirmation in some years. ...and my grandmother treats me like a second class grandchild either way and is still mad because I don't believe and left church. ...would like to be direct, but I fear that this might escalate...could also be funny...twisted feelings. :ninja::shifty::cautious: