What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[KP the nut]

I am in the middle of arranging for a fence to put up the full length of the drive way, just inside our boundary line. Now that will be fun to see his reaction. :whistling:
As hubby said when we get his dog it has to be secure in our garden.

This made me smile, I love it. But instead of a fence, you said he was a bad driver, What about a nice sharp scratch hedge, with thorns, but ensure it is within your boundary. Or a brick wall, cause even more damage. :roflmao:

And yes, absolutely the dog needs an enclosed garden.

 

[Philippa]

I was feeling despair and desolation earlier today, and found it hard to hang on...I just felt miserable today and did my best to cheer myself up by singing and whistling at work.

I am battling with lots of fears and anxiety over having cut my father off. He got my number through my brother and tried calling, but I won't answer the phone. I don't know what to do, as it's his birthday in 6 days and my brothers will come down on me if I don't call him at least, but I just don't want to call him. I know he is sad and upset and misses me, but I'm just not willing to back down.

I guess my extreme stubborness is presenting itself...but hey, I am my fathers daughter, and he is a thousand times more stubborn than I am.

Now, I am feeling pretty frazzled but chilled.

 

[shell]

Sad, I'm so over this.
Angry, because my father never stopped it.
Rejected and hurt from my parents and brother.
Pathetic, because the past won't stay in the past
Scared, that this will never end, and I'll never reconnect with my immediate family who don't understand me anymore.
Stressed about the thought I have to sleep tonight and all the feelings that I manage to suppress during the day freak me out.

 

[Shoney]

I feel very anxious....I always feel anxious when I do school work.....It hurts....I feel sad...unsatisfied...worried beyond belief.....I feel shame....I want to cry...but I am at school.....

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Feeling like I need to go lay down but can't seem to leave the forum as it is keeping me grounded today.
Feel inadequate and a fake participant as a living breathing person.
Feel the abyss pulling me in and not so sure it is a bad thing any more, just want it over with.

Feel ashamed for feeling the way I do.

 

[Philippa]

Feeling terrible for not calling my father back and for them all now realizing that I didn't give them my new number or address for 4 months, by choice. It feels bad that I've been ignoring them all, but I also feel relieved that I had it out with my brother last night over family issues, so at least communication is happening.

But yeah...guilt is what I am currently battling in my inner world. Confusion...do I really have the right to be so pissed off at them, or am I just being a bitch? My brother said that he knows people who would kill for our childhood, and that my definition of harm isn't his. I know people who would kill for my childhood as well, and mum and dad did shelter us and prepare us for this cold world, when we were kids...that doesn't mean I have to put up with emotional abuse from them as an adult though.

I'm battling the inner world this week.

 

[The Albatross]

I feel anxious and am compulsively dissecting the interview. I'm feeling like I blew it and I'm feelin ashamed and angry at myself.

I think I am qualified. I think I got great references. I think that I'm being my own worst enemy at the moment. I think I gave myself a headache.

 

[Philippa]

I feel so lonely and crave cuddles and company today. Restless, full of energy but not doing anything with it, except posting here...which is constructive in it's own way.

I'm bored. I know I could paint or draw, but I can't even be bothered. Plus, I'm feeling teary and like I might burst into tears without warning at any moment. I'm menstrual as anything.

 

[Srain]

I was feeling fine physically until I remembered I had an engagement with my husband's old college friends tonight, then I felt a knife like pain in the side of my head, migraine attack. It's killing me right now, it's going to be severe. I never had to go so it's not like I was pressured, these can be triggered from anything. My "old tapes" tell me I am always responsible for everything bad in my life, it's always my fault. The neuro doc told me Migraines are NOT headaches they are ATTACKS, they are physical, they are real, anything can set them off - stress, light, smell, etc., they are not curable. Perhaps the stress of thinking about attending was the last straw, doesn't matter, game on. Ouch.

 

[ms spock]

Grief from the never ending loss and sadness and pain I feel over the loss of my family. Relieved from the tears I have shed. I could never have fixed it. There was nothing I could do and there is nothing I can do.

What is done is done. There is no fixing it.

I hope one day the grief will end and not come up so much. I have been grieving a long, long, long time.

 

[BloomInWinter]

...grief, loss, and worry...

 

[KP the nut]

Positive, lovely family time ahead.
Sore and aching but will control with meds.