What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Feeling hopeful tonight. Feeling wistful about the disappearance of a person into dementia. Feeling a bit tired.

 

[intothelight]

Struggling a lot with just the weight of life....

waiting to see how much time my son will serve and what options are their for him
waiting on MRI results to see if my daughters brain cancer is still gone (6 month check up)
waiting for my own blood work next week to see if I still have remission
waiting for papers from the collection agency for the outstanding medical and that court date

One or two of these things would be enough, but that is the way my life rolls, huge things all the time. This morning I am angry for enough is enough!!! Only thing, there is nothing and no one to direct this anger towards. Its just life and that is the way that it is. Looking for the good and reaching deep; inside to find the strength to lead and be the role model that my family needs me to be. Problem is that part of me just wants to run to a quiet place and shed decades of tears, but I am afraid that if I open that tap, it won't stop.

Anger is my PTSD response, and it is the fear that drives it. However, my fears are now based in the present and not to be scared is crazy. Need to stay in the moment, but not in denial. All I can do is wait and then play the hand life deals to the best of my ability.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

@intothelight ... Prayers, Prayers, and more Prayers for you and your family!

I had forgotten just how horrible major depression can be when it is not treated.

Been there, done that! Please keep on top of those meds!!!!

I feel contemplative and calm at the moment. Good time to pray for those in need of prayers because I can empty my mind of every thing but those I am praying for and their needs. It is a good place to be!!!

 

[Spiderallis]

I feel very needed today- my dog is recovering from surgery yesterday and isn't comfortable being more than a foot away from me. She's napping at the moment.

 

[Anrish]

@Spiderallis : Glad to hear that dog's surgery went well. ...I'm sure you will take good care of each other. :hug:

I'm feeling relieved. Signed the new contract for the new flat and spent a nice evening with our new landlords who even treated us to coffee and cake. :wideeyed: ...and their children behaved to polite..I'm still surprised in a very positive way.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am a turtle today, hiding in my shell and researching online. I feel good that I keep on trying to get a job. I feel a little stressed about not having a job. Trying not to horrablize. Keeping myself calm and doing a few things around here and am satisfied with taking a break from shopping for items for the apartment. I feel good that there is no more drama in my life at this point.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I had some anxiety earlier but am feeling so much better now.

I worked through an issue with thought and reflection and managed to come to a resolution that is best for me and I think this is the first time I have ever done that before instead of the usual knee jerk reaction and that feels very good to trust my gut instincts and head off a potential future problem and I feel peaceful about my decision.

 

[Leah Morgan]

I feel empty with the odd flicker of anger red anger

 

[Anrish]

Nervous, excited and adventorous. I will travel to St. Petersburg tomorrow and I will travel on my own. ...oh help. :p

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Anrish you are going to have a wonderful time and I look forward to hearing about your adventures.

I am having a good day today and feel real peace of mind.. It is so wonderful to feel this way and the troubles of yesterday have gone away. I feel very good to be alive.

 

[Britt.f7]

I felt validated by my therapist. It was reassuring to have a man say that what happened to me was like being raped. Especially since my dad, when I told him, had nothing to say. The doctor said that was trauma in itself to have no response from my father. Overall it is a good day. I wasn't wrong that what happened to me was bad. And here I was doubting it. Despite how it made me feel for many years.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am still feeling inner peace of mind and being. I just love the good days so much.