What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms donna96]

I feel depressed

 

[Tinyflame]

@Heather I am so sorry. :( :cry: They are a part of our heart. (((((((((Heather))))))))))

Hugs for so many who are so sad or struggling. :( @Jemini , @Gadgie , @Panda Bear @Spiderallis , Ms. Donna. :hug:

I feel decidedly stupid to write this but I will in the hopes to take it away. I feel very frightened, I have to submit a ticket, that will be the 'admission of guilt' & I fear being sued. :( Also that it will be The Tipping Point. :( I feel tired & anxious & hypervigilant. I heard a crunchy leaf fall & my heart went through the roof. I feel I wish I were gone & ashamed for it after help. I feel grateful for small things. I feel horrible about myself/ ashamed. I feel/ know I'm whining writing this. I feel restless & very tired & anxiety-filled. I feel self-destructive. I feel that it is crazy to feel all these things at once. I feel pretty hopeless & worthless & a bother I guess.

 

[Tinyflame]

Geez, I feel ashamed, but I have to say, I think the 'stuff' , re: the ticket has actually caused the SI. I know that sounds stupid. But details left out, I also ended up chased etc. Really horrid experience that if only I could 'fix' but cannot (go back in time :( ).

A friend laughed at the ticket felt good. But I have so much fear & overwhelm. And am feeling what if I bring more harm on other? :( I can't bear that, I really can't. :(

I know it all sounds so stupid if you're not 'me'. I'm sorry. :(

 

[Heather]

@Junebug ((((((hugs))))) Hoping your days get easier.

 

[Tinyflame]

@Heather thank you. Prayers for you & your daughter also, xoxox.

It's actually odd, I'm not good at cutting myself slack, but I do realize (just figured it out) I find it devastating & so frightening also to feel helpless or trapped. Like with that, or even like the other day, had a problem with my boot, just felt sheer panic simply because I know I can't run (if necessary) in stocking feet for long in the snow. (And it's super slippery, from experience.)

I do feel very thankful for some understanding of where these things come from- they're not quite as stupid as thy seem.Thankful for kindnesses too.

Also I feel more awareness that trying to pull up can't be done overnight. I'm not sure entirely what I feel.

 

[Lionheart]

(((((((((( @Junebug ))))))) lots of healing hugs for you :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:'s

I am feeling excited about the move to the new house, new town etc. (in 2 weeks) The house was built in the early 1900's and is on the historical registry. :wideeyed:

My niece seems to think it is haunted. lol Who knows, with all that history it could be, I suppose. But it's our house now and ain't no haints a gonna run us off. :):D:p:laugh::roflmao: (yes, I am a bit of a hillbilly) ;):tup::hilarious:

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you sweet @Lionheart777 . :inlove: :hug: :hug: :hug:

Even 'ghosts' would love your company. ;) :) :hug:

 

[Ronin]

I'd appreciate having some ghosts so hard.

I was also about to start whining about my health state. Pissed off it's both not good for throwing knives nor darts & not a dengue fever. Because why have something ordinary you can't get medication for and that annoys you when it could be something interesting back. Reminder to self: take it through tropical countries next time. ;)

(Cough, a serious update? I'm doing better. I'm snarking.)

 

[Tinyflame]

I'm doing better.

:tup: :hug:

 

[Spiderallis]

The shaking after speaking to my mother beyond a brief check-in has become nausea. She's eager to repress things. I won't even bother trying to explain that to her. Maybe I don't need to work on how to process this anger, maybe I need to accept that some people are just balls of negativity.

 

[Lionheart]

Unfortunately, some people are balls of negativity @Spiderallis I hope if you decide you need to process your anger that you will be gentle with yourself afterwards. Best of luck.

:happy: I am feeling really happy and excited...I am over halfway packed to move and we are not moving until the 6th of February. I am finding things that were packed in the attic for the past 5 years and while some of it is being thrown away, most is stuff I will be happy to finally have enough room for. :)

 

[Ronin]

Maybe I don't need to work on how to process this anger

Can you make it work for you as opposed to against you, though, Spiderallis?
And you're right, her distortions aren't your responsibility, nor does denying events change what happened.