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What would happen instead of fighting you allowed yourself to cry? I say this because I am unable to cry as a result of my childhood abuse, and trust me I would give anything to be able to cry.
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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
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What would happen instead of fighting you allowed yourself to cry? I say this because I am unable to cry as a result of my childhood abuse, and trust me I would give anything to be able to cry.
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I am feeling energy today and I am feeling the desire to move today. I feel up and good today too.
AngelKeeperJ
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I am relieved. The inner "voice" that screams that I am not good enough has stopped.
SophiaWisdom
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Better.
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If you feel like sharing - how did this happen? I am most eager to gather any and all tips.
AngelKeeperJ
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@SophiaWisdom
Thank you for asking your question! I am sure that this "voice" began in my head long before I could express myself. I am/was a "preacher's kid" in the Penecostal denomination. The main theme was always about our being unworthy of God's love and the sacrifice of His Son.
There were mixed messages. God loved us "unconditionally", (which I do believe) but it was implied at EVERY service that we could "lose" our salvation easily, by not being good enough." Which in my mind and heart meant not being perfect. I think I went forward during most every altar call. Thankfully, my Dad changed the way he believed and didn't preach about hell more than he did heaven.
I have heard that "voice" my whole life and never felt worthy of anything good and that included gifts.
(I was molested for the first time when I was about 4-5 years old, and it happened intermittently until I was in my early teens) Sex was never talked about, but I got the message that it was bad, and that I was bad and that there was something wrong with me.
I find it very sad that MANY preacher's kids are messed up emotionally. The church made it seem like "turning your back" on God could happen without a person even knowing it, so I needed to "repent" ALL DAY, EVERY DAY.
THANKFULLY, my beliefs are MUCH different than what I was taught.
Sorry for the LONG response!
Thank you for asking your question! I am sure that this "voice" began in my head long before I could express myself. I am/was a "preacher's kid" in the Penecostal denomination. The main theme was always about our being unworthy of God's love and the sacrifice of His Son.
There were mixed messages. God loved us "unconditionally", (which I do believe) but it was implied at EVERY service that we could "lose" our salvation easily, by not being good enough." Which in my mind and heart meant not being perfect. I think I went forward during most every altar call. Thankfully, my Dad changed the way he believed and didn't preach about hell more than he did heaven.
I have heard that "voice" my whole life and never felt worthy of anything good and that included gifts.
(I was molested for the first time when I was about 4-5 years old, and it happened intermittently until I was in my early teens) Sex was never talked about, but I got the message that it was bad, and that I was bad and that there was something wrong with me.
I find it very sad that MANY preacher's kids are messed up emotionally. The church made it seem like "turning your back" on God could happen without a person even knowing it, so I needed to "repent" ALL DAY, EVERY DAY.
THANKFULLY, my beliefs are MUCH different than what I was taught.
Sorry for the LONG response!
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DharmaGirl
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Migraine since last night. So I feel guilty for being sick.
AngelKeeperJ
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((( @DharmaGirl ))) :hug: (if ok)
I hope you feel better tomorrow! You didn't choose the migraine, it chose you!
I hope you feel better tomorrow! You didn't choose the migraine, it chose you!
Teasel
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On the surface basically ok
Under the surface angry nauseous overwhelmed exhausted avoidant
Under the surface angry nauseous overwhelmed exhausted avoidant
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