What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Happyplace76]

Hi there,

Thought I was slaying my dragon - I’ve made incredible improvements in a lot of areas. Fear, anxiety - trust still hard. Expecting the worst outcomes, waiting for the next shoe to drop. Sound and vibration STILL plaguing me as my main trigger besides literally anything I can perceive as a threat to my son. The shelter has not been easy. Being exposed to others traumas has been hard but I’ve developed a “thicker” skin although to me it feels like survival. We have finnnally found a place, a little side by side duplex right across the street from my sons school. Having some good days where I’m thinking “I can do this, we can do this” but we’ll aware of the depression that the doctor is finallly treating. At least I’m not going down the rabbit hole of suicidal thoughts, giving up, giving in. For that grateful. Very hyper vigilant today. For good reason I can’t share on here. Anything that has to do with my son’s safety I seem to go into a hyper reactive mode (again understandable given the last year). Sucks, feeling “cocoony”. Moving finally in December yay!! A little scary but really looking forward to it.

 

[blackemerald1]

@Happyplace76 - hello dear friend! Wow I am so pleased to read that you are okay!! :hug: x100...

I know this is the wrong thread for a long response but I was only thinking about you yesterday and I was hoping you were okay. So, so, glad you and your son are safe and you are out of the shelter. I have no doubt that you are one big mother bear when it comes to your son. With what you have been through I don't blame you! :hug:

 

[Teasel]

A normal (for me) amount of social anxiety. Doing a pretty good job at firefighting all the usual paths my brain wants to go down. A bit discombobulated.

 

[blackemerald1]

I'm feeling really excited because I am getting a aircon installed :) yay!

 

[Abstract]

A bit courageous. Rebellious. Tired.

 

[intothelight]

Reflective and tired.

 

[blackemerald1]

Tired :banghead: Frustrated & alone.

 

[intothelight]

Stable. focused, committed to staying my own course.

 

[ahershey]

(living with PTSD 5+ years) Today, I am overwhelmed. I work, go to school, and am a single mom. My grandma got sick last month and evicted from her property. I had been living in my travel trailer on her property. I am homeless, again. Plus I have been helping move/sell all of grandma's things, and find her an assisted living place. Right now, I am behind on my homework, making me anxious.

 

[Tinyflame]

Dance!!

 

[ms spock]

I am really struggling again. But maybe I am not struggling but just feeling feelings? I don't know. It doesn't feel that good. I have a massive meltdown on Saturday and cried my eyes out so much I rang the Suicide Call Back Line. I was just so overwhelmed it all flooded out. The man said I am/was very hard on myself. I don't know if I can do the next step in my life, and healing it just feels so overwhelming.

 

[Abstract]

Frustrated at myself and my avoidance. Adding difficulty onto difficulty as a result. Anxious and trying to pretend I am not. Determined, indignant, hyperactive, guilty.