What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[txtrace]

Feeling a lot....overwhelmed, at a loss, scared, like a freak, overstimulated, sad.

My wreck was 18 months ago but in April I had a new surgery that put me out 3 months for physical healing. I'm still healing physically but it was decided I needed to return to work to try to get back to "normalcy". Yesterday was my first day back (desk job), day 2 wasn't any easier.

I feel like everyone is watching me and I feel like I have to be *smiles* all the time for them. I'm really just scared (i will go from police officer to civilian employee with a pay cut in about a week), overwhelmed, grieving and tired (of all of the questions every day). Add to this the zoning out and flashbacks and I feel like a complete freak.

I just want to crawl back under the covers and stay in bed.

And tomorrow after work I will be observing a M.A.D.D. victim impact panel to learn more about them since I've been asked to speak when I'm ready.....thank goodness T says that's going to be a ways down the road.

Today is a day I hate living alone

 

[txtrace]

I am feeling so brain dead after a tough EMDR session but proud I did not back out.

I am feeling excited at seeing my daughter tomorrow

but also terrified of the drive

Enjoy the visit with your daughter. I have faith the drive will go well and will be thinking happy thoughts for you! I know you can do it!

 

[revelry]

I feel .....
like crap....
I had a crummy day, felt overwhelmed, overtaxed, overloaded...
but I read about about Amy, KP's accident and Froggie's cancer and i feel like crap, because that's soo much scarier that anything that i'm going through right now, and i just want everyone here to be well. (I guess that's the soon-to-be nurse in me).
KP, Froggie, Amy..........I don't have anything to say right now.....just a silent sincere (((hug)))

 

[AngelaMarie]

I am feeling irritated and taken advantage of.:mad:

 

[Queen Boudica]

Alone

 

[intothelight]

I am awake again. It's 3:30 and the anxiety is rampant. Wish there was a way to ramp it down. Oh well, at least the laundry is getting done.

 

[Froggie]

Today is a day I hate living alone

((((txtrace)))) many hear have heared your cry of pain and aloness, many, like me, have gone down that road of pay cuts, we are still here ... with a different life, but we are still here. Linking arms with you txtrace.

 

[Froggie]

I had a crummy day, felt overwhelmed, overtaxed, overloaded...

Stay with the reality revelry, YOU had a crummy day that really got you down ... and that is the TRUTH. Anyone would feel like you did. And you HAVE to feel that otherwise you would have a real problem. Never deny what you are feeling, this is one way to get back your empowerment. Acknowledge what you feel : emotionaly, physically, mentally, etc. Linking arms with you

 

[Spero3]

As I read through the posts from the past few days on this thread, I am struck by how brave and strong each of us are. Every day we get up and struggle with our various PTSD symptoms, medication issues, and physical problems and somehow we each find a way to muddle through until we crawl back into bed only to repeat the next day. To everyone struggling on this forum, I send thoughts of support and wishing you each an easier day.

Spero

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((Spero))))

 

[LawPhotos]

Woke up super early after a super late night and I am already dreading the day. It is 9:30 am and it is already 88 degrees (31.1C). The heat just drains my energy --well it would if I had any energy.

 

[cat]

Angry & frustrated. I'm still waiting for a meeting with my boss regarding recent events at work, day 10 now!
Grrhhhh, I'm taking Anthony's explanation & diagram of the PTSD cup to the meeting then perhaps she'll understand me a little more.........i'm not holding out much hope though!