What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Tinyflame]

I am so glad Deb!!! :tup: :inlove:
((((Hugs)))), to the Extreme. :)
xoxox

 

[Tinyflame]

I think I understand something about myself today, (not that it really helps, unfortunately).

Wondered how it is, that the feedback from others is that I (appear, anyway) so 'normal', or am 'desired to be there' (vs being a burden).

Now I know obviously I struggle with that, and people don't know what thoughts ('re-livings', etc, symptoms) are in my head (appearances can be deceiving). But, I thought, it doesn't sink in because I simply don't believe it.

For example the only (albeit 'stupid') analogy I can think of is being called 'beautiful'. Nice as it is, it's BS. I'm 'ok-enough', even could be called 'pretty' or 'cute' or whatever (blah- beauty is in the eye of the beholder). But 'beautiful' is stupid, ridiculous and a 'stretch'. A 'line' or a 'lie'.
I don't mean that as a lack of self-esteem, but quite opposite as simply the truth.

That's exactly how I feel about the other, not being a burden or bother, it's BS.

Far as 'feeling' goes, just feels like it isn't true, BS, kind of ashes-in-the-mouth, don't know of any word.

 

[bethinhfx]

I felt sad, a little broken, falling apart; but reached out and felt hopeful, love; hugged someone--asked for a hug; did yoga for an hour; went for a beautiful hike in the woods; now, after eating and drinking a hot cup of chai, feel hopeful, tender- hearted, vulnerable, more grounded. Namaste.

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

I just feel cruddy. :alien:

 

[AngelaMarie]

(((Deb))) I am so, so glad things were better than you thought they would be. I am thinking of you, my forum friend.

(((Flying Solo))) I hope you feel better soon!!!

 

[Loloma]

A little better than yesterday, although I awoke feeling out of touch with reality. Weird dreams of a fantasy life which is better than reality at the moment.

Very sore all over, couple of pain killers took care of that. So far have the sadness under control which is good as I have busy days ahead.

(((((Hugs))))) to all that need them. :tup:

 

[intothelight]

Woke up really early, but that is just the normal side effect of the steroid. It should wear off in a couple of days and I just need to keep the anxiousness it creates under control. A lot of pressure right now and I am fighting it.

Will just have to see how tough I am and what I have learned over the past year, as to how well I fight it. Just need to keep in mind that it is a drug side effect and not a personal failure.

 

[Red Feather]

panic attack

 

[Red Feather]

Sorry didn't mean to post this twiice. I just had one of the most intense moments dealing with bureucratic social workers and paperwork that I just can't handle. Everytime I see a formula. Anxiety Geez. I can't even formulate. And then I come home and get another letter. Geez. This is really a time in my life where everything goes wrong. I've never been so broke in my life.

 

[Loloma]

Such wonderful news to report. My brother is now in surgery having a kidney transplant after being on dialysis for over 6 years. Will keep you all posted.;)

 

[Tinyflame]

Loloma, that's wonderful.
((((Hugs)))) and hopes everything goes so well!
xox

 

[KP the nut]

(((Loloma))), that is good news. I will light a candle for him.