I've been feeling really weak and exhausted physically today. I think the last two weeks have just caught up with me, and now that I'm on holidays from school I CAN actually fall apart a bit, or let myself feel the exhaustion. I had to keep going last week.
Not sure if I'm feeling work tomorrow though. I have the worst pain in my left shoulder and neck. I can't move my head very fast that way, and have had to be really careful with how I hold myself today. Massaging people all day is probably not going to be the best thing for it.
I woke up from a dream earlier and realized that I felt pissed with my manager for not living up to her word and still not printing out the payslips I've asked for 3 whole weeks ago. I've been understanding, and I know she is busy, but how hard is it to just print two payslips out? She has all the equiptment, and it would take a minute...but it makes me feel like she considers my request to be so unimportant to her that she doesn't need to follow through with her words, even though she has said she will over 6 times now...and hasn't.
She has proved herself to be unreliable...but I have no illusions about people. Most people are extremely unreliable, and I learnt a long time ago that if you want something you have to do it yourself...except I can't with this. She is the only one who can...and she keeps putting it off.
Because of that I probably won't get my loan application in on time to the bank and will have to forfeit a holiday I've been looking forward to for 6 months now...to Phuket. I really need to just spend 5 days getting massaged on the beach, but my voucher, that I bought for a discount price off the internet expires at the end of June.
A part of me feels like she is doing this deliberately because she doesn't want me to go on holiday and leave her stuck for employees...which has been happening a lot lately with people not showing up and one girl walking out last week.
I am wondering if this place is right for me to be working at now? There is too much craziness that goes on there. This is the final straw though.
I don't care about her excuses and how busy she's been. I've been understanding...now I'm just pissed off. She's cost me $250 for a voucher I may not get to use because she didn't keep her word!:mad:
