What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Deleted member 6617]

Extremely sad, fragile, and vulnerable.
So very exhausted.

 

[Kiskit]

I am feeling agitated & scared today. I am feeling as if my abuser is just around the corner (impossible now, I think)

It's a paralyzingly feeling. I find myself breathing shallow to avoid being detected. My whole body feels on fire from being stomped upon& beaten by the metal antenna. The telephone broken across my back--saying it's all my fault. Abuser's rage intensifies. Feeling humilated with all the bruises; feeling my "self" lift up in the corner of the room. Staring at me. Knowing I should be the strong person everyone thinks I am not dissociated into this scared little kid who is too paralyzed escape. I try to scream but nothing; just frozen. Terrified. Alone. Humilated. Dead inside my soul.

 

[Elphaba]

Anxious. Really anxious.
And incredibly tired.

 

[brokenwings]

I feel anxious.

I feel exhausted after another bad night of nightmares.

I feel on edge.

I feel stupid for having to sit here with the curtains drawn in the middle of the day.

I hate feeling these feelings.

 

[cherryblossom]

I feel much more relaxed today.... after a week of never-ending stress due to work troubles. I think all my hard work is paying off, and I have done all that I can for this week. So chill out time is here...

 

[Iam]

I am so glad that you are doing better CB ;o) I hope you have a wonderfully relaxing weekend that rejuvenates you!

 

[Iam]

I am in pain today. Both my head and my low back (which hasn't been much of a problem of late.) I guess all the stress is taking it's toll on my body.
I feel more hopeful though so that is good. At times I even feel like I am up for the fight of battling this thing.

 

[cherryblossom]

I am so glad that you are doing better CB ;o) I hope you have a wonderfully relaxing weekend that rejuvenates you!

Thankyou Iam. I will be working hard... doing nothing!!

 

[Jade-]

Sorry you're in pain Iam. Stress is so hard on the body.

It's good to hear you being more positive and to hear you're feeling ready to fight now.

I always thought giving in and giving up was easier than fighting. But actually, it takes more work and effort to plan my demise than it does to fight. Probably because when I fight, I'm in "me" mode and thinking of myself. When I'm planning my demise, I have to think of everyone and everything else in my life.(can't leave any lose ends).......

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I am sorry about your head and back Iam. It just adds to the fire doesn't it?

News meds today. Leaving me tired, and with a slight fever. There's no hot water...the stupid water heater is broken. So I am also feeling very dirty. uggg :(

 

[Iam]

I am feeling better and stronger. Still unmotivated to do much and still wanting to isolate, but I am getting there. I also feel disappointed that my T wants to put EMDR off until she meets with my husband and she is sure that he won't purposefully sabotage my progress. :dontknow:

 

[Jawn]

She is just trying to make sure you keep on track Iam and do not have any more set backs. Her talk with your hubby will probably help her to understand him better and how he influences you. It may also help "enlighten" him too on this he does unintentionally that he needs to avoid doing.

Jawn