Mach123
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I’ve read a post a while ago. I think he was by @littleoc but I’m not sure . Anyway, they’re just if it was nothing works. I think I have to concur. I’m on my meds now after I lost my painkiller prescription because I couldn’t control them. But they don’t work really. I mean they work if you can stay in bed. And I wasn’t bad. I was actually in bed for like two years on my pain meds and I was on the cycle of taking. I was supposed to have a month supply and I would take them in two weeks so I was in bed all the time I was either like bunked out of my mind or I was getting over coming off the cold turkey. Coming off oxycodone cold turkey.
But the problem with the medication is at least for me. You know you’re always running out of pills. So what the end result is, you can’t do anything when you’re on your pills and you can’t do anything when you’re off your pills. Plastic start to get in the way of things after a while like you start missing appointments and stuff because you’re either on your pills or you’re trying to get over being on your pills.
This is my experience leads to suicidal depression.
People also suggest the AA route, but I did that. And after 22 years of continuous sobriety, I went back on drugs because I was suicidally depressed.
So what do you do? My wife is starting to talk about getting rid of me. I have to put up with constant score and division from her. Unless I leave her alone, I have to admit if I leave her alone, she doesn’t bug me much.
But anyway, I’m more or less trapped in the house. You know I go out in the yard and do the gardening, but I’ve been a little shaky lately. So yeah overall things suck.
Sex, which was my safe place in my biggest thing you know it’s basically over between my wife and I because her body failed her . I lived on that all those years.
I’m functional enough to actually get some kind of job. I don’t mind working. I’m actually good at it. I was born to work like a Lincoln used to say. But I can’t deal with the people.. I suppose I could start searching with ChatGPT for things I can do you know by myself for cash. I’ve sort of done it before it never seems to come up a very good idea. Ideas?
But anyway. When the guitar dropped away and I stopped feeling like I wanted to practice it every day, I knew I was in deep trouble. I learned a lot about the guitar I know all about the court shapes in the arpeggios and the scales. Everything in fact, except how to play it. It’s the story of my life believe me.
Anyway, I have a lot of health professionals around and they are willing to help. I have to say I’ve gotten a lot of help and I’ve always said that and I’m grateful I’m just sorry that none of it seems to do any good. They’ve given him my particular trauma. Having had some kind of sex thing with my mother before I was old enough for preschool. If that’s not enough to make a mess out of you I don’t know what it is.
Did I mention the chronic pain I’m in now again because I’m off of my oxycodone I was 20 mg of oxycodone a day and I went off cold turkey
But the problem with the medication is at least for me. You know you’re always running out of pills. So what the end result is, you can’t do anything when you’re on your pills and you can’t do anything when you’re off your pills. Plastic start to get in the way of things after a while like you start missing appointments and stuff because you’re either on your pills or you’re trying to get over being on your pills.
This is my experience leads to suicidal depression.
People also suggest the AA route, but I did that. And after 22 years of continuous sobriety, I went back on drugs because I was suicidally depressed.
So what do you do? My wife is starting to talk about getting rid of me. I have to put up with constant score and division from her. Unless I leave her alone, I have to admit if I leave her alone, she doesn’t bug me much.
But anyway, I’m more or less trapped in the house. You know I go out in the yard and do the gardening, but I’ve been a little shaky lately. So yeah overall things suck.
Sex, which was my safe place in my biggest thing you know it’s basically over between my wife and I because her body failed her . I lived on that all those years.
I’m functional enough to actually get some kind of job. I don’t mind working. I’m actually good at it. I was born to work like a Lincoln used to say. But I can’t deal with the people.. I suppose I could start searching with ChatGPT for things I can do you know by myself for cash. I’ve sort of done it before it never seems to come up a very good idea. Ideas?
But anyway. When the guitar dropped away and I stopped feeling like I wanted to practice it every day, I knew I was in deep trouble. I learned a lot about the guitar I know all about the court shapes in the arpeggios and the scales. Everything in fact, except how to play it. It’s the story of my life believe me.
Anyway, I have a lot of health professionals around and they are willing to help. I have to say I’ve gotten a lot of help and I’ve always said that and I’m grateful I’m just sorry that none of it seems to do any good. They’ve given him my particular trauma. Having had some kind of sex thing with my mother before I was old enough for preschool. If that’s not enough to make a mess out of you I don’t know what it is.
Did I mention the chronic pain I’m in now again because I’m off of my oxycodone I was 20 mg of oxycodone a day and I went off cold turkey
