What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[goingonhope]

Omg, I can't read that quite now, I'm gonna have to read soon and when possible.

Going to bed soon as I feel pain (the base of my skull, across and down), ...and, I feel sick, frustrated, scared and sorry. But I'm feeling quiet and safe, ...so long as I remain quiet, closed-mouthed, fully self-reliant and in want or need of nothing.

Apparently, beneath this all, I also feel very hurt, sad, betrayed and disappointed. Not so angry I think, but not entirely without frustration/anger either.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

(((Going on hope)))

 

[Charmedone]

I am feeling very very safe. Hundreds of miles away from HIM and not even my close family or friends know exactly where I am, :) feels good.I feel like the bad memories are just that..memories, I'm not worried or scared or wondering if HE is lurking around the corner...

I'm feeling some peace today, my worries of family at home, of HIM can wait until another day.

I am in pain with my chest and breathing isn't brilliant but I'm well enough to enjoy this unique opportunity in my life.

Most powerful feeling at the moment is one of joy and excitement, I meet the children tomorrow and I am so looking forward to that.

Another strong emotion is love, I love Jake with all my heart and feel like part of me is missing without him here, but I know he is safe at home. My heart skips every time I think of him.

 

[Traumagirl]

I feel distraught today, like I can get control of my emotions. So many of them are high this morning. I feel agitated, frustrated, sad, lonely, guilty, ashamed, angry, scared and uncertain. Wow, I didn't know I felt all that until I started typing. HUGS!

 

[Queen Boudica]

I am feeling like my parents, my ex husband and those close to me broke me into a million pieces and, somewhere in those pieces there is the real me but I can't find her she is hidden in those pieces too well. I just can't put me back together again properly without her, I just get the mess of emotions that my parents implanted inside of me, the real me is lost forever.

The part I need to find is that child who is lost running, desperately trying to find somewhere or someone safe, someone to love her and teach her how to live without fear. But that child is so lost she has given up running and trying to find safety, because everyone she ran to failed her. Instead she is hidden, crying, afraid to come out. I see her in my tears and in my nightmares and I am reminded of her when I look at my own children but then she runs and hides and I can't find her because she doesn't ever want to be found. She is lost in an eternity of bad memories and nightmares.

 

[Philippa]

I feel sad for you Lizio. That must be terrible to live with.

I feel a bit befuddled at something that just happened, and somewhat confused, but also hungry and feeling like I wasn't very productive today, although I did do some stuff that was productive...in domestic goddess kinda ways.

I wanted to call my mother all day, but I didn't want to get into a conversation about it being father's day and her trying to get me to call him. I pre-empted the conversation and it was enough to stop me from calling at all, even though I don't really know if that is what she would have said to me? So I feel a bit bad that I didn't call when I wanted to.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling alittle better today now that I connected the dots and figured out that I am grieving the loss of my husband due to his dementia. It will take me awhile to adjust and heal. I will be easy and gentle on myself. I just feel so sad and berefit. It will get better as I grow stronger. Today is a new day. I will try to enjoy the good I find in this day.

 

[KP the nut]

(((HUGS))) to you all.

I feel I have been so lazy today and guess what - I don't care :p. I've read loads of my book, and I did a community car journey this afternoon. I collected a couple who had gone to visit their sick son. H drove them there and I did the return journey.

I have a lot of 'stuff'' going on in my head, not all of it good. I wish I could share but it isn't possible.

I will not allow myself to crumble, I will stay positive.

 

[Loveneverfails]

Feeling a little sick to my stomach, tired and back hurting. Generally not good signs. Gonna take it easy.

 

[KP the nut]

:oops: I'm feeling quite nissed as a pewt :hungover::hilarious:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

KP what are you really saying? I need a translation. Please.

 

[Philippa]

I think KP mean 'pissed as a newt'...in other words...KP is drunk as a skunk.

I, on the other hand, am sober as a jay.

A bit unsure what to do with the day? Hungry and feeling a bit forgotten.