@Gadgie - my partner did have PTSD and was only shutting me down while he would communicate with others. He never put any effort in trying to maintain communication with me. I communicated that I was there for him, loved him, etc. All he ever did was to treat me like his worst enemy and ended up shutting me down completely. With or without ptsd... how can you fit in your head that the person you love wouldn't even care enough to just be there for you in simple way... ? In the end, I wasn't even worth a simple text message.
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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
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Ah! I never knew that, but it still doesn't explain what be did to you? If he was still communicating with other people, and cutting you out, it sounds like he was telling you, all be it in a nasty way, that he didn't want to see you any more?
Of course the way he did it was bang out of order, he could have told you in a much more civilised way, and explained his reasons more tactfully.
That is such a hard thing to do, and you have to be brave to do it. I had to do that with my first wife, I was working away from home for long spells, and we drifted apart over the years, then I met my late wife.
I was so worried as to how she (my first wife that is) would take it, that I was physically sick, but I needn't have worried, as the first thing she said to me was to give me a list of all the furniture and other stuff, that she wanted to take with her?
Of course the way he did it was bang out of order, he could have told you in a much more civilised way, and explained his reasons more tactfully.
That is such a hard thing to do, and you have to be brave to do it. I had to do that with my first wife, I was working away from home for long spells, and we drifted apart over the years, then I met my late wife.
I was so worried as to how she (my first wife that is) would take it, that I was physically sick, but I needn't have worried, as the first thing she said to me was to give me a list of all the furniture and other stuff, that she wanted to take with her?
I really don't know what happened. I thought we had the relationship where we could talk about anything. I even told him once that if he ever felt like I wasn't what we wanted, he would tell me, and he just said, "no, that's not it, I'm just going through some stuff". I don't know what is valid and what is not. Whatever it is, it has left me feeling betrayed, abandoned, confused and very heartbroken. Just can't fit it in my mind.
I feel pissed that some people have animals BUT don't Care for them properly! I feel really pissed that they then drop them off in the country and they end up at my house neglected, then I have to find someone to come and get them as I can't afford to care for them all!! I'M PISSED THAT SOME ASSHOLES THINK ANIMALS ARE DISPOSABLE, THEY AREN'T!! THEY ARE LIVING, LOVING BEINGS JUST LIKE US!! :mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:
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I'm feeling sick and tired
Of therapy
Of PTSD
Of being scared
Of being angry
Of not knowing how I'm going to react to any situation in any given moment
Of never being able to trust people
Of always taking a chance on the wrong people
Of wanting to be invited somewhere and at the same time hoping I'm not. Then when I'm not I feel hurt and when I am I back out at the last minute.
Of never knowing if I am doing the right thing
Of being distracted so easily at work And always feeling like I'm not doing a good enough job.
Of when people say thank you or complement me or my work, I feel it's because they see me as weak and are just trying to be nice and give my ego a boost.
Of thinking there's always an ulterior motive
Of writing this list!
Of therapy
Of PTSD
Of being scared
Of being angry
Of not knowing how I'm going to react to any situation in any given moment
Of never being able to trust people
Of always taking a chance on the wrong people
Of wanting to be invited somewhere and at the same time hoping I'm not. Then when I'm not I feel hurt and when I am I back out at the last minute.
Of never knowing if I am doing the right thing
Of being distracted so easily at work And always feeling like I'm not doing a good enough job.
Of when people say thank you or complement me or my work, I feel it's because they see me as weak and are just trying to be nice and give my ego a boost.
Of thinking there's always an ulterior motive
Of writing this list!
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