Rattled, humbled, uncertain, grateful, fearful, and then some. Just spent the last 2 days in the hospital via an ambulance ride in the wee hours of the morning with another a-fib heart episode, then went into atrial flutters. My strong desire to take no medications has officially ended, as it seems my life may truly depend on it. Hugs to all who are hurting and struggling. May our hearts be able to carry the many heavy loads we encounter, as well as painfully remember.